Shatter

11. Mom's Advice

    As she sits there hugging me waiting for me to talk, I try my best not to cry. I finally decide to tell her and sit up to look at her. 

    "Ash came here to talk to me. He was at the movie theater when I went to the car and he said he's not giving up. But I told him I never should have let this happen and he needed to go." I start crying as she hugs me again. She stays silent at first, thinking about what I told her. Then she sighs and and looks at me.

    "Honey, I've never seen you so attached to someone. If he really makes you that happy, maybe you should let it happen. There are ways to fix this and I know you're gonna say no but just think about it. You know your siblings and I will support you no matter what."

    I listen to her talk and sigh when she's done. I know she's right but I don't want to put him at risk. 

    "I can't ask him to do that, to become an undead creature like me." She sighs and looks at me again. She just stares for a few minutes and I'm about to ask her what she's thinking when she finally talks.

    "Do you love him?" I roll my eyes, is she really asking me that?

    "Of course but-" she cuts me off and keeps talking.

    "Does he love you?" I sigh and look down.

    "Yes but I-" she cuts me off again.

    "Then you should try to make it work. At least talk to him about it. Honey I know it's hard but I see how happy he makes you." She lets go and stands up walking to the door. 

    "I'm not going to decide for you but I told you my opinion. Now you just have to listen to what your heart says." She leaves and closes the door behind her. I just lay on my bed thinking and debating. He probably hates me now, especially after the last time we talked. And if he didn't yet, he would if I asked him. I mean who wouldn't after being asked to almost die, be thrown into a new world and can't tell your family anything? That's crazy... Right? After an hour I decide she's right and I know I have to try, so I call him and hope he doesn't hate me.

    "Luna?" He answered right away sounding unsure when he answered and a little hurt. I felt so bad right now I didn't even know what to say. 

    "Ash I'm so sorry about everything. I understand if you hate me but please let me explain." I said it quickly so he didn't hang up and hoped he'd listen.

"What? Of course I don't hate you. I could never hate you and I know you were just trying to protect me. And I'm not gonna hang up on you so you can take your time." I sighed in relief and thought for a second. I needed to do this in person not over the phone.

    "Can you come here in the morning? If not I can try to sneak back there. But we need to have a conversation in person not over the phone"

    "Yes, I'll leave as soon as I get up."

    "Okay. I love you Ash, which is why I'm not cutting you out of my life."

"I love you too. I'm sure whatever it is will be fine." We talk for the next hour before we both fall asleep.