Irrevocably Yours

1 week, 7 days

Again, sorry for the delay of updates. I'm currently between a day shift and a night shift so I'm able to post this chapter. I will be on night duty for the next two nights so there might not be any updates for the next 2 days. I'll make it up to y'all on my days off. I promise!
This is a feel good chapter for me. There's also doubts and unanswered questions but that's what the next few chapters are for. Anyway, thank you for continually reading and enjoy!
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"1 week to go! Are you ready Meng? You're getting married in one week! Oh anak, I'm so happy for you!" Maryann babbled as she looked at her daughter who was on the backseat beside her son.

"Hon, I think you're more excited than your daughter" Ted gently admonished his wife.

"Pfft! So?!? She's my baby girl. Of course I'm excited for her" Maryann responded back.

Neither the Mendoza parents noticed how quiet Maine have been during the drive to the Faulkerson residence. They are heading there for a family dinner and last minute get together before the wedding. RJ had a meeting downtown that day so he will head straight to his parents house after. Hence, Maine and Sebastian were riding with her parents in their car.

It's one thing to anticipate being married to someone such as Richard Faulkerson Jr. the doctor, but it's another thing to see 'The Richard Faulkerson Jr.' on the front cover of Forbes Magazine Canada and with the title of the 'most upcoming millionaire bachelor'. What the fuck?!? Sure the magazine was over a year ago but still. Maine wouldn't have known about it until Jenny pointed it out to her while they were going through old magazines as they were cleaning the PCC office. It was dated August of last year.

The thing is, Maine knew from the moment she bumped into the muscled (it was hard, the muscles) chest of her future husband, over two years ago, that he is God's gift to women. The first time he touched her, she felt the spark that can only come from one such as him. And the first time they had sex, (gaaahhh, it was heaven), she wanted to own him! Like, keep him in her pocket and carry him wherever she goes. Yeah sure, I ran, but honestly, I would've done that if I could. So Maine can only imagine what the rest of the womenhood felt when they saw a picture of his Adonis-like face with the caption 'millionaire bachelor' under it. They must've have lined up outside his door hoping for a turn.

Yes, she admits, she's lucky to be marrying a man such as RJ. BUT! Yes, there's a big 'but' because life wouldn't be colourful without 'buts' right? But, she can't help but feel inadequate being that she's just, well, just her. A simple girl, from a simple family. In truth, her house is probably worth more than her person. If 'insecure Maine' needed encouragement, then, there it is!

God knows she's madly, head over heels in love with RJ and she knows, he feels the same (he hasn't stopped showing her, in more ways than one). However, her insecurities have a tight grip on her steering wheel right now. The thought of 'what if a few years from now, RJ realizes she's not enough' kept circling around her head. What if I really am not enough? She's trying really hard to ignore 'insecure Maine', she really is! Maybe it's just stress? Maybe it's just her pregnancy hormones creating havoc on her. Maybe it's just cold feet because her wedding day is approaching, FAST! Maybe this, maybe that. Maybe, maybe, maybe! Fuck!

Oh and another thing, last week, when they were talking about past sexual partners (I don't even know how that topic came up so, don't ask), after much prodding, RJ admitted that he didn't stay celibate after their first Vegas escapade. He did say however, that nobody ever came close to her and everytime he was with someone, he was always thinking of her. Cheesy? Yes. Cute, maybe. Sweet, definitely! However, Maine being Maine, she felt such tremendous jealousy towards these women that it actually borders on stupidity. Admittedly, the sane part of her knows it's pointless and foolish to be jealous of those women he bedded that time, but hey, a pregnant woman can be jealous if she wants to, right? She can be unreasonable if she wants to? She can act irrational if she wants to? Yes! Of course not (sadly)! Maine has been debating wether she should tell RJ how she feels whenever he asks if she's okay but to be honest, she doesn't want to sound like a possessive teenage girlfriend. Too late for that Mendoza. You already are acting like one. Besides, they're not married yet. He might back out of the wedding on the grounds of insane fiancée. Yikes!