CYN
I just got back from talking with Erica. I got to the room and Daph was already knocked out. I grabbed some clothes a bottle of wine and ran a bath. I always used this time to think, and after that talk it was much needed. I wasn't surprised to hear that she cheated on me with Rich, i think everybody and their mom knew that, i just wanted to hear the truth from her. I was surprised to hear her reasoning on why she left me though and when she got engaged she thought about us. I didn't really know what to think about that. Erica is very misunderstood, people think she is this bad person and i thought the same thing for a long time too, she just makes bad choices sometimes, well most of her choices are bad but that's who she is. Her intentions are good she just thinks of herself and not how her choices will affect other people involved. She thought Shad was going to be the answer to our problems but he wasn't and now she has to deal with the consequences. I saw that she was sincere with her apology and she was actually sorry for what she did which is why i decided that we could work on a friendship. Its not my place to judge her now based on our past. As long as she shows that she has changed and doesn't cross the line of us being friends then i don't have an issue. I'm a very forgiving and understanding person as long as you show me an effort. I just don't know how i'm going to bring this up to Ray. He told me not to let her get to me and i did. But at the end of the day i am my own person and i make my own choices, i just hope this one doesn't blow up in my face.
I was soaking in the tub drinking my wine and my mind was focused on Erica. I wonder what she's doing right now? Probably out doing god knows what. I don't know if it was the wine, but out of nowhere i got a boost of confidence and i decided to call Erica. The phone kept ringing and as i was going to hang up she answered i just bust out laughing.
Erica "Mmm hello?" she answered half asleep
Cyn laughs.
Erica "Um hello? Who is this?"
Cyn "Sorry Erica it's Cyn, i don't know what came over me lol, i was just calling to make sure you made it home okay, i didn't mean to wake you"
Erica "Oh Hey Cyn miss me already lol? But yeah i made it home safe and sound."
Cyn "No i don't miss you I was in the tub and was thinking about you" she slapped her head realizing what she just said and who she said it to.
Erica "Oh really well i'm flattered."
Cyn "Don't be, that just came out totally wrong."
Erica "I'm sure but i'll drop it. But what's up? Everything okay?"
Cyn "Yeah everything is fine."
Erica "Oh okay..."
They both sat in silent for a few seconds
Erica "Well if that's all i guess i'll talk to you later?"
Cyn "Erica wait.."
Erica "yeah?"
Cyn "I know it's kinda late and you were sleeping but would you mind staying on the phone with me?"
Erica "I'd love to."
Cyn "Thank you."
We spent the next hour and a half catching up on a lot of things. I asked her about King and her mom. She gets so happy when she talks about King, how smart and handsome he is. She tells me Mrs. Sonia is still the same, nothing has changed with her. After everything shes been through she always makes sure her family is good, even if that means putting herself second and I've always admired that about her. Were alike in that category because after my brother committed suicide i made sure my family was provided for no matter what. We talked about work and the projects we have coming up, I told her that i was here for a month and that i was looking for place because i plan on moving here. She has some friends in real estate so she offered to help out. We made sure we avoided any talk about the past because it's still a touchy subject. We were just enjoying the moment. I finished off my bottle of wine without even noticing it.
Cyn "I know i'm a little tipsy right now, but I am so proud of you Erica. You have grown so much as a person. I never thought i would see the day that Erica Mena matured into a woman lol, even though you still can't leave the hoes alone lol"
Erica "Thanks asshole lol, but i have needs too."
Cyn "We all do lol. No but really I'm glad you've grown up. Regardless of what we've been through I always wanted the best for you and you know that."
Erica "Yeah i know.."
Cyn "It feels nice to be able to talk to you like old times without the messiness of our relationship. I think this friendship thing might actually work between us lol, i just hope everybody else is as optimistic as me. I'm sure a few people will have a few words for me once they find out were cool again."
Erica "Yes it is, out of everyone besides Albee and my ma you probably know me the best, even after not talking for such a long time. Honestly they have every right to have their feelings towards me but your opinion is the only one that matters. I will make this right Cyn."
Cyn "We'll see.."
We talked for another hour or so then said goodnight. After drinking that bottle of wine and relaxing in the tub i was ready for bed.I have another gig tomorrow and i was thinking about inviting Erica but it's probably to soon and I don't need somebody seeing us and then were all over the blogs. Everybody would over exaggerate including Ray and i'm not ready to have that conversation with him. I really don't need the drama in my life. I'll sleep on it. I don't know why but i'm kinda excited Erica is back in my life. But i still have my guard all the way up because i know how she is, but i will give her the benefit of the doubt. I put my phone on the charger and went to sleep.
