CYN
"Baaaabe can you grab the salt for me please? You know i'm to short to reach the top shelf so i don't know why you keep putting things up there" Erica walks into the kitchen laughing "you know i can't help myself the view is amazing, but it is kind of funny to see you struggle" "Yeah well it's going to be funny to see you struggle when i don't give you any for a week" her mouth dropped "you wouldn't dare" "try me boo" I turned around and continued to cook her breakfast when i felt her hug me from behind "what are you doing Erica, i just said you're on punishment" she laughed "Babe you know you can't resist my charm" and she turned off the stove. I tried pushing her off of me but she grabbed my arms and held them above my head "you know your not stronger than me so i don't know why your trying to push me off of you" she picked me up and wrapped my legs around her waist while trying to kiss me but i kept moving my head "You gonna deny me kisses babe?" I avoided looking her in her eyes because once i do it's game over. "Cynthia why won't you look me in my eyes" I continued to ignore her "Okay i got you" and she tried to put me down but i wasn't gonna let that happen i tightened my grip on her waste and kissed her with so much passion. She took that as her que, she walked over to the island and sat me down pushing everything onto the floor. She pulled my shirt over my head and took my pants off throwing them behind her . I pulled her closer to me and she started kissing my neck making her way down my body to my thighs. She knows that's my weakness so when i start to moan she laughs "I told you that you can't resist me" I sat up on my elbows and gave her an evil look "Don't push your luck" and laid back down. I felt her kissing back up my body but she stopped when she got to my pussy. "What you want me to do babe?" I grabbed her head and pushed it down so she can start eating me out. The pleasure Erica gives me is out of this world. "Babe don't stop..oh my god it feels so fucking good" I intertwined my fingers in her hair and started pulling. I felt myself getting ready to climax and bit my lip to suppress my moans. "Babe your so fucking sexy, don't hold your moans in let them out i want to hear you scream my name" I felt my eyes rolling to the back of my head and my orgasm rising. "Daddy i'm fixing to cu...."
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
My eyes shot open. WHAT THE FUCK. I went to get up and noticed Ray wasn't in bed. But i'm more focused on why i was having a sex dream about Erica. Whoever was at the door continued to knock and was really aggravating me "HOLD ON A SEC I'M COMING." I opened the door just enough so i could see who was there "Babe let me in i went to go get us food but i left the room key on the table" he said holding up a bag of food and coffee. Of course once i saw food my whole mood changed "What'd you bring us?" He sat the bag down on the bed and and walked over to give me a kiss "Your favorite" My eyes got really wide "Babe!! you brought me crepes? i know there was a reason why i loved you" I ran over to the bag and got my food out and sat at the table "I knew you only loved me because i fed you." I was so busy eating my food that i didn't even realize he was still talking to me "Hello earth to Cynthia, a thank you would be nice" I laughed "Sorry babe you know how i get about my crepes, but thank you" I finished eating and laid down on the bed and went through snapchat. Ray came over and laid next to me "Babe did you see your ex was out being a thot again?" My eyes shot over to him "What do you mean?" i was curious. "Erica was out and they caught her making out with some girl, its on the Shaderoom" I felt my stomach drop. "Well that's not shocking" After he brought Erica up my whole mood changed. I wanted to call her and cuss her out but she's not mine to fight over anymore. "Aren't you glad you don't have to deal with that anymore?" I just rolled my eyes "Can you please stop talking about Erica!" He just looked at me and rolled over facing the wall. I got up and grabbed my headphones and decided to take a walk.
I can't believe this girl. This is why it was a bad idea to let her back into my life. She flips my whole world upside down and now i'm fighting with my boyfriend because of something she did that shouldn't even matter to me. I logged onto Instagram and pulled up the article Ray was talking about. That's the girl i caught her with in the club. Typical Erica. I thought she changed but i guess i was wrong. I decided to just let it be and to apologize to Ray. As i was walking back to the room i got a text from Erica. I wanted to ignore her ass but i can't let her know anything was bothering me.
Erica: Hey you!
Me: Hey
Erica: Whatcha doing?
Me: Just took a walk to clear my head
Erica: Everything okay?
Me: Just fine
Erica: When is your boo leaving?
Me: Tomorrow
Erica: Ight let me know when your free, we need to talk
I left the message on read and deleted the convo. Ray would die if he knew i was talking to Erica. I got back to the room and Ray was on the bed watching TV. He looked over at me and went back to the TV. I sat next to him an grabbed his hand "Babe i'm sorry for yelling earlier.." "It's fine Cyn really" "No it's really not, i only have the rest of today and a half day with you tomorrow and i don't want to spend this time fighting" I gave him puppy eyes and he smiled "You know i'm a fool for those eyes. But really babe it's fine i got over it the second you walked out the door" "Well you could have told me that before i apologized for no reason" He laughed again "No you apologized because you felt guilty for yelling at me" He was right "I love you baby" He replied with a kiss. I deepened the kiss and he went along with it. We spent the next two hours having sex and cuddling. He eventually fell asleep and i was left alone with my thoughts. I felt different laying here next to Ray. Maybe it's because i was having a dream about my ex? Or the fact that i'm jealous that my ex was making out with another female? Either way the reason I'm feeling like this is because of Erica and it's not good. I got out of bed and put my robe on and walked downstairs to the pool.
I love laying under the stars at night. It's so peaceful and it gives me time to reflect on life. My brother and I used to make time once a week to do this with each other and we would just talk about everything. Since he passed i haven't been doing it as much but i think it's a good idea to start. The only other person i have done this with was Erica, not even my best friend. I would talk her ear off and she would listen. She may not be the ideal person to be in a relationship with but she is a very good friend and i miss having that in my life. I decided to call her. I told her what i was doing and she was glad i called. We talked for the next 2 hours about stupid stuff. It was nice to have someone to just talk to.
Me: Alright Erica i think i'm gonna go back upstairs now
Erica: Aw just when the convo was starting to get interesting
Me: Listening to you talk about you farting in Kings face is not interesting, it's gross.
Erica: Oh whatever you act like you've never farted in someones face before
Me: That may be true but i don't go around telling people
Erica: That's true
Me: Thank you for talking to me. I haven't done this since Joel passed and we broke up. I usually just sit and think to myself but it was nice to actually have someone listen and actually respond.
Erica: You know i'm always here for you Cyn
Me: Goodnight Erica
Erica: Hey Cyn, you wanna maybe grab dinner tomorrow and watch a movie, we can bring it back to my place.
Me: Uhm i'll let you know. Goodnight Erica
I was low key excited but i wasn't fixing to express that to her. I sat outside for another 10 minutes and went back to the room. When i got inside Ray was still sleeping with his lazy ass. What i'm doing right now is wrong. It would completely destroy him if he knew i was talking to Erica let alone spending time with her. I don't want to hide things from him so it's probably best that i am honest. I'm not that type of person. He can either choose to trust me or choose not to. Either way i am my own person and it is my decision to have Erica in my life. I removed my robe and was left in my underwear and bra. I got into bed and as soon as i laid my head down i was out.
