ERICA
Flashback
Erica "Cyn, I've been sleeping with Shad and I love him."
Cyn "Erica how could you do this? I've done nothing but be loyal to you. Yeah I don't trust you and that causes a lot of fights between us and it probably pushed you away, but can you really blame me for feeling that way after everything you put me through?"
Erica .......
Cyn "Say something Erica. Am i not enough for you? Do i not please you anymore? Is it because I'm younger than you? Just tell me what it is."
Erica .......
Cyn "I feel like my heart just got ripped from my chest. I want to hate you but i can't because i love you Erica. This is just another bump in our relationship but we can get through this together. I can make changes Erica just please don't leave me."
Erica "Cyn I love him and i want to be with him."
Cyn "Erica please don't do this." tears falling down her face
I have broken this girl. How is she the one that got cheated on but is begging for me to stay? Seeing her cry like this made me hate myself. I don't deserve her and if i stay it will just get worse. I need her to hate me so she can move on with her life. It breaks my heart but it's the right thing to do.
Erica " Look Cyn this just isn't going to work out anymore. It's not you it's me. I need excitement in my life and you just don't give me that feeling anymore. My lifestyle is to much for you to handle. To be honest i fell out of love with you a long time ago, i just stuck around because people loved us and it got me publicity. Cyn it's over."
I couldn't bring myself to look her in the eyes. I know if i did i would second guess myself on this decision. I didn't want to damage this girl anymore than i have.
Cyn "Wow. I never want to see or hear from you again."
I was broken out of my thoughts by King shaking me. " Ma are you okay? your crying" I didn't even realize i was crying. "Yes Chubby I'm fine just have a really bad headache." He looked at me like he knew i was lying "Hmm okay, well as long as your okay then I'm okay." and he went back to playing his game.
I finished making dinner for King and ma then jumped in the shower. I have 1 hour before makeup and hair arrive. I'm so nervous about tonight i can't even thing straight. Peter finally gets here with his late ass and beats my face and does my hair. I wasn't talking much and i guess he sensed something was bothering me. "Alright bitch what has got you so quiet tonight? Looking like somebody ran over your dog." He asked eyeing me "Cyn is hosting at Ace of Diamonds tonight and i have a million and one things running through my head." "What in the hell is she doing in LA? Does she know your going to be there?" "No" "Oh lord honey your on your own with that one, at least Albee and everyone will be there with you just in case shit pops off" "Thanks for the words of wisdom asshole" i said laughing. "Anytime boo." I got dressed and got in the car that was waiting downstairs. Everyone was already there, I'm running late since Peter decided he wanted to show up on his own time. Albee gave me a heads up that Cyn was already there and i got even more nervous. I brought a bottle of Patron with me to help ease my nerves a little and i started downing shot after shot. I am not gonna have a good night unless i have alcohol in my system.
Twenty minutes later the driver let me know we were here. I went to get out and stumbled a little. I was a little past tipsy but nothing i couldn't handle. I called Albee to let him know i was outside and i saw him walking out with a smirk on his face. "What?" i asked him. "Your already drunk, probably not the best idea." "Yeah well i wouldn't be able to get through this night sober." "Whatever you say Erica." He said linking his arm with mine making sure i wouldn't fall.
We got to the section and i greeted everyone. I grabbed a bottle of Ciroc and poured myself a cup. I chugged it and sat down scanning the club. There were bad bitches everywhere and i was trying to get into something tonight. I noticed this girl kept staring at me so i called her over to my section "HI I'm Mya, nice to meet you" "I'm Erica" We were vibing having a good time when i turned to ask her if she wanted another drink she kissed me. I pulled away and she was giving me sex eyes. "i gotta use the bathroom, wanna walk me?" I jumped up right away "After you beautiful" and i followed her. She pulled me in locked the door and we started making out. At first i was kind of hesitant but with the mix of alcohol and how sexy she was i couldn't pass up the opportunity. I shoved her against the wall and lifted her dress up past her waist. I was rubbing her clit through her panties when i was interrupted by a knock on the door.
Knock Knock
Mya was moaning so loud there was no way whoever was knocking at the door didn't hear us. I shoved my tongue down her throat to keep her quiet but that didn't help at all.
Knock Knock
"Give me one second" I yelled
"Oh hell no I've been waiting for 10 minutes, i need to pee before i go in my pants."
I pulled away from Mya and she gave me a look like she wanted to kill me. "Come on, there's a line of people waiting outside we can finish this back at my house"
She rolled her eyes as i pulled her dress down. She was fixing her hair and i was fixing my lipstick. We got ourselves together and i unlocked the door. I prepared myself for all of the comments people were going to make. I opened the door and was face to face with Cyn.
"Wow. This doesn't surprise me at all."
Fuck. My. Life.
