ERICA
I am freaking out right now. i don't know what i was thinking asking her to let me explain myself. I should have just let her go on about her business, but no i always have to open my big mouth. And then i tried to hug her on top of that. Real smooth. I guess Mya noticed the tension because she was nowhere to be found. There goes my good time for tonight. I sat down on the couch rubbing my temples when Albee sat next to me "what's wrong with you?" he asked. All i could do was shake my head "I asked Cyn to let me explain myself." He looked at me "Well maybe this is good so you can both get closure because you did just throw it all on her then got engaged to Shad. Her head was probably all over the place. You need to get whatever it is off your chest but let her say what she needs to say as well even if it's not what you want to hear." " Yeah I know but i'm ready to get out of here I'm kinda tired." That was a lie i just needed a quiet place to think and the club wasn't going to be the answer. "Okay Mena, you want me to walk you out?" "Nah i got it, I'll call you tomorrow." I said my goodbyes to everyone and went home.
Flash forward 3 days
It's been three days and i still haven't heard from Cyn. I don't know why I'm stressing this much because i still don't know what i'm going to say to her. Maybe i just like the feeling of her presence? It's whatever though, I'm not going to put anymore thought into it. If she decides she wants to talk then she has my number. I have other things to focus on other than Cyn.
Right now i'm on the way from the gym and headed to the whole foods store to pick up some foods for my diet. I'm in there so much I pretty much know all of the employees by first name. I pulled up to the parking lot and grabbed my shopping cart and made my way over to the juice bar. I placed my order and was waiting for them to call my name when i heard an all familiar laugh. It was Cyn's. I peeked around the corner and saw her standing there talking with one of the stockers. My juice was ready so i went to pick it up and just stood there contemplating on what i should do about the Cyn situation. My name is Erica Mena and nobody stands me up and gets away with it so i decided i wanted to be petty. I put my headphones in, picked up a magazine grabbed my shopping cart and turned the corner and saw her back was facing me. Perfect opportunity. My head was low enough to where it looked like i was reading the magazine but was still able to see her. Laughing on the inside i "accidentally" ran my cart into her and kept going. I heard her say "what the fuck" and i acted like i didn't hear her but i could feel her eyes burning a hole in my back. I'm guessing she didn't like that so she followed me down the isle and snatched my headphones out of my ears which caused me to turn to her and give her the dirtiest look "Yo what do you think your doi...oh hey Cyn" I'm such a bitch lol. "Don't oh hey Cyn me, you just ran into me and didn't say anything." she said with a sassy attitude. "My bad i guess i didn't see you there want me to kiss it better?" Her mouth dropped and she just looked at me "I take that as a no? okay well have a good day." I turned to walk away but she grabbed my arm, she still can't resist me. "I'm ready to talk now if you are" "Okay let me pay for my juice and i will meet you in the parking lot."
I finished paying and walked towards my car. Cyn was sitting on the bench waiting for me "You can either follow me to my house or we can go to the park, your choice." "I'll feel more comfortable at the park, no offense to you. But can i ride with you? I didn't rent a car and i don't wanna wait for an uber" "None taken, hop in i have to drop my bags off at the house and then we can go to the park." She looked around deciding if it was a good idea or not, put her hood up then got in. I turned the music up to avoid any awkwardness and just my luck Like You by Bow Wow came on. Can I catch a fucking break. She sighed loudly and just looked out the window. We pulled up to my house I ran the bags upstairs real quick, gave my King some love and when i came back down Cyn was on the phone "I miss you too babe..yes..i know i know..laughing..I could use some of that right now..more laughing..Okay babe i gotta go... I love you too...muah muah muah...Bye babe." I was fuming on the inside. I don't know why hearing her talk to like that pissed me off so much. She isn't mine anymore and it's my fault so i have no right to be mad. I took a deep breath and drove to the park.
