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Chapter 5

Song: Make Me Like You- Gwen Stefani

"I was fine before I met you, I was broken but fine. I was lost and uncertain, but my heart was still mine"

Delilah

I peck Niall's lips, sitting up and grabbing my jeans. I pull them on, pulling my sweatshirt over my messy hair as well. I turn around to see Niall checking me out, a smirk on his face as he trails his eyes up my body.

"Maybe we can do this again?" He asks.

"Mm, maybe?" I question. I only wanted to blow off steam from today, not continue seeing him and make this into some kind of relationship.

"Maybe?" His face drops.

"I just wanted a one time thing... You understand that, right?" I ask him. He nods, sitting up. "I gotta get back home but this was very fun," I smile, crawling on the bed to peck his lips again. I grab my bag, running out with one more look back at Niall.

I walk out his front door, hopping in my car as I reach to grab my phone. I see I have one missed call, from Louis...

I mentally roll my eyes, deleting the voicemail and driving away. I start to think about Louis, the conversation from today ringing through my head.

I start to daydream about him, imagining what it would be like to go to the carnival with him, play games, watch movies and-

My phone starts ringing, making me jump and look down. Louis' name pops up on my screen, frustration getting the best of me. I pick up my phone, answering it.

"Yes?" I say, trying to sound annoyed. 

"Hello to you too," Louis laughs. I roll my eyes, turning down my street.

"What do you need?" I ask, trying my best to be a bitch.

"I was wondering if we could meet up on Friday to get my phone fixed?" He asks, my heart clenching at how he sounds on the phone. I shake my head, breathing in heavily.

"Sure," I say quickly.

"Really!? Thank you-" I hang up, putting the car in park and getting out. I grab my backpack, walking up to the door. I walk in, seeing my mom cooking and Joseph watching SpongeBob.

"Hey Delilah," my mom smiles. "How was studying?" She asks, leaning in for a hug. I look at her battle wounds, still mad at myself for leaving her alone with dad.

"A blast," I say in sarcasm.

"Dinner will be ready in a few minutes. Why don't you get cleaned up and help Joseph-"

"I'm not that hungry," I cut my mom off. She gives me a weird look, but nods.

"Well if you get hungry, dinner will be in the fridge," she tells me. I smile, walking to Joseph and kissing the top of his head. He doesn't really notice, too into SpongeBob.

I laugh at him, heading up to my room. I shut my door, throwing my bag on the floor and laying down in my bed.

I close my eyes, my tiredness not hitting me until now. My body becomes heavier and heavier, darkness taking over.

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I wake up, rubbing my eyes in confusion. I sit up, looking around my room seeing everything where I left it when I came in.

I look over at my clock, seeing the red light read 7:38 am. I groan, laying back down. 

I stare at my ceiling, a voice echoing in my head. My dads insults ring through my brain, making my eyes squeeze shut.

"You're a worthless little bitch."

"Fucking slut."

"Why did we even have you? You do nothing, ya piece of shit."

"Your dyslexia makes you the stupidest in the family."

I shake my head, hitting my head repeatedly with my hand to try and get the voices out. I can't have my dads pointless insults in my head like this. He didn't mean them, they're not true... Right?

I sit up after the voice got quieter and quieter, getting out of bed and grabbing clean clothes. I head to my bathroom connected to my room, starting the shower and getting in.

I strip down to nothing, getting in and standing under the scorching hot water. I close my eyes, throwing my head back. I let the beads of water hit my face, relaxing the muscles that were once tensed.

My mind drops everything running through it, but starts to think about the way Louis' hand felt when I touched him. How I felt the shocks shoot through my body and how he smiled at me when I was sassy. The way his blue eyes stared at me with something nobody's ever looked at me with, the way he tried to keep talking to me even when I was rude.

My eyes shoot open, my hand connecting with the shower wall. I scream, bringing my throbbing fist to my chest.

I can't start to like Louis, I can't like him. I can't think about him, I can't miss him like I do right now and I definitely can't talk to him anymore. I barely even know the kid! But, something about him is different and it worries me a lot. No one has ever left this much of an impact on me in such little time. I like the feeling, but it can't happen. I need to avoid Louis at all costs.

I shut the shower off, blood dripping down my arm. I squeeze my eyes shut, grabbing a towel to wrap around my knuckles. I dry off with one hand, pulling on some ripped skinny jeans and a loose maroon sweatshirt. I tie my hair up in a ponytail, not wanting to brush it with one hand.

Once I finish, I reach under my sink for my first-aid kit. I grab the big band aids, spraying a healing spray on my knuckles then applying the band aids. I grab a soft wrap, wrapping my knuckles so it's secure and pin it so it won't move.

I don't bother with makeup, not caring at the moment. I grab my backpack, walking out of my room just as my mom walks out of hers as well. She smiles sleepily at me, my injured hand hiding behind my back.

"Good morning," I smile. She yawns, walking down the stairs. I follow her, trying to come up with a lie.

"I have to go to school early to talk to one of my teachers, so I can't drop off Joseph today," I tell her. She nods her bed head, digging into the cupboards for cereal.

"I'll drop him off," she says. I nod, walking over to kiss her temple before I leave.

"I can still pick him up after school though! Love you," I say. She smiles, still half asleep as I walk out the door. I feel bad leaving her alone with the boys, but Will helps Joseph get ready for school too.

I hop in my Audi, starting the engine and pulling out. At this rate, I'll be an hour early to school with nothing to do. I don't know why I'm leaving so early, I don't have anyone to meet or anything to do. I just needed to get out.

I pull into the school parking lot, cars scattered across the lot but the parking lot mostly empty.

I park towards the front, turning my car off and grabbing my bag. I walk to the main doors, entering the empty school. I decide to head to the school cafe, wanting some coffee to get my blood flowing.

I walk up to the register, ordering a blended iced mocha.

"Your name?" The girl asks.

"Delilah," I tell her. I look behind me, seeing the one and only Louis sitting at a table. His face is shoved in a book, hoping that he didn't hear me talking.

I grab my coffee once it's done, thanking the girl. I walk the opposite direction of Louis, luckily not getting caught.

My first class flies by quickly, just receiving a worksheet to complete. My day is going pretty smoothly until English comes around. The only class I have with Louis of course has to snail through my life.

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