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Chapter 16

Song: Ruin- Shawn Mendes

"And I'm not trying to, ruin your happiness, but darling don't you know that I'm the only one, for ya"

Louis

I left Delilah's house around eleven, excited and bubbled over with happiness. The feeling of her lips against mine... I don't think I'll ever get over them. I'll never get over the feeling. I'll always get butterflies even with the tiniest of movements.

The whole night Delilah and I snuggled together, watched The Conjuring but mostly kissed and talked about nothing. It was one of the most perfect nights. I even landed a date with her.

"Delilah?" I whisper, her heading moving from the TV to look at me. She has a smile on her face, my heart literally melting at the sight.

"Hmm?" She continues to smile. Her eyes are a bit droopy, notifying me that she's tired.

"I- um, do you want to, maybe, go on a date?" I stutter, scratching the back of my neck. She stares at me blankly, my heart starting to race more than it already was.

Is she going to deny the date? What if she does? Does that mean she doesn't like me? Am I just another one of her play toys she uses when she's bored? Oh my god, what if she doesn't even like me-

"I'd love too," she warmly says. I smile, shoulders resting.

Why would I doubt myself? She told me she liked me. She poured her heart out to me a couple weeks ago. Nobody can just lie about that. Nobody can act that. It was real, her words were real.

She extends her neck, pressing her lips to mine which caught me off guard. I flutter my eyes closed, reaching my hands up to cup her cheeks.

So here I am, laying in my bed at three am trying to think of a romantic date. I've never done any of this, never been on a date that is. It's all new and I need to get my love wheels spinning up in my head.

It sounds so stupid... Never have been on a date. I'm a senior in high school and haven't even been out with a girl. Yes, I've kissed a girl before Delilah. It was in middle school. I was at my friends birthday party and there were a few girls there and we were playing truth or dare. You can only imagine what happened.

I shake my head, laughing at the embarrassing moment. I start to come up with ideas, most of them being the worst and most cheesy dates ever. I took out a notebook, sitting up and turning my bedside lamp on. I grab a pencil, opening to a clean page and start to write ideas.

Date Ideas for Delilah

1. Take Delilah to the harbor outside of town, renting a boat and spending a day out on the ocean.

2. Invite Delilah over for dinner with my family, bonding afterwards.

3. Take Delilah out to a nice restaurant then to see a movie.

4. Build a campfire and sing her a song while roasting marshmallows.

5. Take her out into the woods, setting up a picnic.

I tap my pencil on my chin, biting my bottom lip. I look back at my list, deciding to narrow it down.

I read over all of my ideas, rolling my eyes at some. How dumb are some of these? What were you thinking, Lou?

I mentally cross out number two, many scenes playing in my head. She could be absolutely nervous to meet my crazy family, and she's probably not use to doing that. Bad idea.