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Chapter 13

Song: Fix- Chris Lane

"With that goodish, that long trip, that sugar on your lips, that favorite habit gotta have it you can't quit, I got your fix"

Delilah

I lay in my bed for what feels like hours, just thinking thinking about Louis and what could happen. After a very talkative and delicious dinner, I came straight to my room to do some chores, but was distracted by thoughts.

I've never been in love, but I've never felt like this about anyone. All the guys I've hooked up with, have just been to blow of some steam and leave. But with Louis, it's like I can't get enough of him. I don't want to blow of some steam and leave. I want something with him. And thinking that makes me more than afraid. Afraid would be an understatement. The thought of opening up to someone and trusting them with almost everything you have, frightens me. I've never done that with anyone. Not even my own mother. But today, when I opened up to Louis, I felt like ten tons was lifted off my shoulders and I felt relieved. I have never ever told any living human being about my two personalities and life at home.

At first, I was debating whether or not I should tell Louis. What if it was all a joke, his friends dared him to talk to me. What if he just wanted to get in my pants?

No, Delilah.

The look on Louis' face when I was talking to him popped into my brain, realizing that nobody's looked at me like that. That must mean something, right?

I shrug my shoulders, looking over at my clock to see it's almost midnight.

I groan, reaching to grab my phone. I see one text message from Louis, my heart fluttering at his name lighting up my phone across my screen.

I unlock my phone, seeing as he texted me an hour ago. I mentally slap myself, mad that I didn't hear the loud buzz.

From: Louis

Hope everything's okay :) I'm glad we talked today . I really like you .xx

My heart flutters even more, squealing in excitement. I squeeze my eyes shut, clenching my fist around my phone and jumping.

I quickly text back, not knowing what to say but not caring.

To: Louis

I really like you too.

I feel like an idiot by just saying that, but I realize that it doesn't matter. I know how I feel, and that short text means a lot.

I turn my phone off, stripping down to my laced bra and underwear, slipping under my covers. I hear my phone buzz, turning to my other side to read the message.

From: Louis

Sleep well . Goodnight love .xxx

I blush even more, sending a short and sweet goodnight text back, plopping down to lay on my back. I smile, closing my eyes and drifting off to a deep slumber.

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Sunday goes by quickly, considering I woke up at seven in the morning with my mom. I had to return Louis' car so I made my mom come with me to drive to Louis' before she left for work. Surprisingly, nobody stole Louis' car even though he left his keys in the front console. It was very early when I dropped his car off so nobody was awake. I had my mom wait in my car that was in the road while I parked Louis' car in his driveway and put the keys in between their glass door and bigger door. My mom kept asking why I was picking Louis' car up from a cafe, but I didn't bother telling her the story. I'd be grounded for a long ass time if she found out I dragged Louis to a party and got so drunk Louis had to drive me to his house.

After that, I had to take Joseph to his swimming lessons then grab groceries for my mom as she worked. I didn't mind, but Joseph kept grabbing junk food off the shelves without asking.

I had been texting Louis all day, not being able to grasp the fact that this is real and it's not a dream. We kissed and we shared the most intimate moment I've ever been involved in.

We kissed.

I close my eyes, smiling as I feel the tingling feeling of Louis' lips on mine, remembering how soft they were. How non-sexual he made the kiss... He just kissed me and just one kiss I felt like I could be somebody. I felt like I was put on this earth for a reason.

"Hey, D?" I hear Joseph question, my eyes opening. I look at him stand in front of the cart with a big Lego set sitting in front of him. I look back up at him, his eyes silently asking me to get it.

"Joseph-"

"Please? Nana said she'd buy it for me, but she never did," he frowns. My heart aches, realizing I haven't see Nana in almost a year. She's been cooped up in a senior citizen apartment. She calls us all on our birthdays, but the drive is so far away that it's hard to make time to visit.

"Okay," I sigh in defeat. Joseph screams in excitement, my eyes squeezing shut. I open them back up, seeing Joseph struggle to put the box in the cart. I help him, his feet taking off down the isles. I laugh, hearing his flip flops smack against the tiled floor.

Once Joseph and I finish getting everything for mom, we checkout and walk to the car. I open the trunk, Joseph (surprisingly) helping me put them into the car. I put the cart away, hopping in the drivers seat of my Audi and starting it.

I turn around, seeing Joseph in his car seat and Lego box between his feet and my seat. I roll my eyes, pulling out once he's buckled.

I head home, my mom helping us bring groceries in once I arrive. She gapes at the big Lego box Joseph struggles to carry in, wide eyes trailing back to me. I laugh, shrugging.

The rest of the night goes by just as fast as the first half did. I get my school bag packed for tomorrow, sort of dreading going back to school. But, I'll see Louis so I'm quite excited.

"Wanna help me get dinner ready?" My mom asks Will and I. We both nod, Will nudging me with his elbow.

"What?" I ask. He smiles, looking back at Joseph sitting at the dining room table building his Lego.

"You got him that?" Will asks in disbelief. I laugh, nodding. I felt like I should give at the time, so I did. I couldn't help it. His big blue eyes looking up at me and my stomach still bubbly from Louis. I had too.

The rest of the night is spent cooking and talking with my family, my life seeming like it's getting better step by step.

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Short, I'm sorry!! But guys omg Chris Lane is sexy asfffffff. The point of the song is not quite related to the chapter, but the main chorus is :)))

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