I just have to get out.

Part 5

Luca’s house was big on the inside. There was more space inside than it looked from the outside. Or that could have been my mind playing stupid tricks on me. Either way, his house smelt of housey smells. Like, Air freshener [Mainly that Febreeze stuff] and cooking smells emitting from the kitchen direction. I could also hear a faint singing from upstairs and guessed it to be Sappy or Luca’s mum. I remembered Luca’s mum being a great singer and wondered if she still did sing or it was just a hobby that faded.

I tentatively moved my foot forward and then, having to move my other foot, I shuffled towards the front room. Just to sit down. Take a rest from the day I was already having. I felt a presence behind me, but I didn’t worry. Whoever it was, they weren’t going to harm me. I looked around, eyeing up all available slots for me to sit in. There was one of the single armchairs free that I could most likely have. Telling myself that I should just take the seat before I could be rushed into sitting on the floor, which wouldn’t be a good idea and that I would feel like a little child once more.

I moved over to the armchair, running my fingertips over the chair, feeling how soft the fabric felt beneath my fingers. The pattern upon the fabric was of floral design with pink and purple mixed in. How pretty. Plonking myself down, I instantly curled up, tucking my legs underneath me. It felt much more comfy than sitting straight backed, straight legged. I stared at the see-through coffee table in front of me for a while, before my vision was blocked by someone’s straight legs. My eyes travelling up, until I caught sight of their face. I felt a small smile play on my lips as I noticed it to be Luca. “Hey”, I mumbled softly. He seemed so tall, so innocent and ready to protect me that I wasn’t worried at all. He bent down, coming down to my eye-level “Hey there gorgeous. How are you feeling?” He muttered back, his hand softly cupping my face and his eyes looking at me with a gentle look. I shrugged, and muttered something along the lines of “I’m feeling OK. Glad you’re here now though”

Luca chuckled softly and as someone entered the room, he stood up. I directed my eyes at the newcomer and noticed it to be Ethan. Sappy’s new guy. I instantly looked away, not wanting him to harass me as Sappy had done earlier. But he didn’t. He just simply said “Hi. Hope you’re feeling better now” and walked away. I didn’t need to respond. There was no need. I would see him when I went back to school.

School. The worst thing on my mind. Luca wouldn’t be there to protect me from all the stares of the pupils. He wouldn’t be there to protect me from when the pupils started asking questions. What would happen? Would I just lose my temper again and hurt someone? My mind wouldn’t keep up with me either way. I would hit out. There would be no one to protect me then. I tried to return to the present, hopeful to concentrate on Luca. I reached out towards him, tugging at his trouser leg, wanting him to come back down to my level. It soon convinced him to stay and once I had gotten him to the floor, I snuggled up to him as best as I could. It was so comfy with him on the floor and me on the chair. But it would have to do. For now.

I didn’t want to leave yet. I just wanted to stay wrapped in his arms forever. I felt much safer. Much more safer than I did around other people. I must have fallen asleep, because when I awoke, Luca was gone. I wasn’t sure where. I was back properly on the sofa, still curled up. But this time, my head was placed on a pillow that matched the floral color of the fabric design on the chairs. 

Where was he?