I just have to get out.

Part 11

Few days later, I was being dragged around a clothes store, with the best friend. Sure, it was fun and that at first, but she wouldn’t shut up about Ethan. She was filling me in on what I’d missed with her and Ethan, and I just didn’t want to know. It was either how they’d gone on romantic dates or spent hours in his or her room. Jeez, too much information. So that’s why I stormed of and went to look at some dresses. It was something to take my mind of things. Plus, they were on the other side of the store. Away from Sappy for, hopefully, a long while.

That day, when we were having dinner, I could feel Ethan’s eyes on me, but I didn’t look at him. Instead, I concentrated on familiarizing myself once more with Luca’s family. Luca, like his mother, had the kind looking face with the stunner smile. No one could look at his mother without smiling because she was always smiling. Both she and Luca won the Best Smile Award. If there ever was one. Luca’s father was rather good looking. That’s where Luca got his looks from. His hair also, but that’s beside the point. His brother and sister? They were alright looking from my point of view but didn’t have such a powerful smile. What a shame.

I dragged my mind back to shopping and reminding myself of how I had managed to look happy about going in, what used to be my favorite Store, Time Bomb. But thing is, Sappy bought badges and gave me one that said “I don’t look stupid, but I’m really crazy” and I found that insulting. She did know that I was ‘fragile’ in a way and could end up retreating into myself and becoming what I had become. A cold and harmful person that Luca had to endure before he put me inside. For my own good. But let’s not dwell on the past. Let’s go forward! Choo Choo…

Shaking my head free of the images, I felt a gaze on my back and realized I must be attracting a lot of stares from people. I mean, who shakes their head in public? That just acts as a guide to make them thinking that I was mentally unstable. Not good. I turned round, ready to tell whoever was staring at me, to find that it was only Sappy coming over to show me what she had bought. Not that I cared anyway.

“Yvonne! Look, I know how you’ve been feeling and I thought I’d buy you this. It’d look great on you!” Sappy produced what looked like a dress, but alongside the dress she gave me a belt. I know the look was popular, but why with a dress? “Thanks  Sappy, it looks.. great! I really love it. You really shouldn’t have,” I said, with some fake enthusiasm. I was good at lying. Even Luca said so. So when Luca says so, it goes. “Maybe I’ll wear it tomorrow or something. With some leggings.”

Sappy nodded, happy with her purchase for me. “So where shall we head now? Waterstones? I hear they have loads of books for us, as in the teen romance/ dark teen romance, in store” I asked, going to walk out the store. I wasn’t into clothes shopping, yet I hadn’t been shopping in ages so I wouldn’t really remember what it was like. I linked my arm through hers and walked out of the store. Leaving the shop behind us was a good thing. That way, I could focus on moving forward and going to Waterstones to have a good old heart-to-heart with a few new books. What’s the harm in buying a few books for yourself?

Also, the good thing about going to Waterstones was that I could focus on having something in common with Sappy and that we can be happy just chilling i9n the Teen/ Dark Romance section and having our own reads and telling each other what books to get each other for christmas and birthday and stuff. It’s not like we have anything better do in the store so why not make lists for each other then we can go about spending like a whole lot of money on filling up our rooms with books.

Yay! I’m finally going back to thinking about books and being with my boyfriend, Luca, and being with the best friend (Well, I hope she’s still my best friend and hasn’t replaced me..) and searching for books. The only thing that I will need to be careful about is her boyfriend. I mean, what’s the worst that will come to me from Ethan? Another rape attempt?