Begin Again (Book One Of The Kingston Series)

Chapter Four: Packing

Chapter Four: Packing

"A mighty pain to love it is, And 'tis a pain that pain to miss; But of all pains, the greatest pain It is to love, but love in vain." -Abraham Cowley

My first really successful movie was about four years ago, I played a troubled young girl who was guided from the depths of darkness by a teenage boy. From all of my acting, all the people I have presented. I have somehow carried a bit of them with me. From my role when I was 15 I learned to recognize and attempt to mimic depressed people.

Looking into his eyes, his more blue than green eyes. The sadness held there knocked me breathless. Keith was carrying a darkness about him that I wanted to extinguish for some reason. Kol had told me they all agreed to share me... Whatever that means. Physically I was attracted to all of them, they're triplets. So, of course I find all of them attractive. Personality wise though, something in me was sparkled by each of them. Keith's silence and untrusting nature urged me to break down that barrier between us, to get to the person inside of him. To find out what made him so sad, and continues to drag him down.

Kol has a way about him that comes of harsh and inviting at the same time. The way he gets his point across appeals to a side of me that hates wasting time. He is completely sweet and strangely vulnerable. Kaden has to be the funniest and most easygoing of the three. I mean four. There are four of them. Killian.

"What are you doing on the floor, ma douce disparition?" Kol coos from the doorway his head tilted. He is leaning a lot so his head doesn't hit the top of the doorway. I blink at him for a moment and wonder how he got here without me hearing.

"Did you need something?" My voice is resigned. What other news could he tell me? I feel so overwhelmed as it is.

"We should talk about this, as a family. Together." He has a peculiar expression that's akin to happiness.

"What about this Killian I've been hearing about?" As soon as the words leave my mouth I want to take them back. He flinches and an immense amount of hurt stains his face. Then he becomes blank.

"He won't be here for awhile. Maybe even a few days." Kol says casually as he watches me. I nod. Wanting the conversation to be over. The awkwardness is suffocating.

"Then let's go." I start to get up then pause at his outstretched hand. He is my 'soulmate.' I try to urge my hand into his. I still felt a bit afraid of him.

"Come on," He reaches farther towards my hand. I take his. Instantly feeling better. His huge hand surrounds mine. It's smooth and warm. I barely put in any effort to get into a standing position. Once standing he keeps my hand in his and we start walking towards the hall. Passing the kitchen, that's now clean. Where did they get all of that food again?

"Keith and Kaden are already waiting, love." The term of endearment sounds odd in his mouth. I find myself wanting only Kaden to say it to me. I don't say anything and just nod. We go forward toward my living room. Throught the years I've found I hate having company over. I don't do it much. I don't like having people in my space. I don't feel any of that now with these three roaming all around.

"Jasmine." Kaden greets from his armchair. He puts his hand up beckoning me forward. I start to walk towards him. Kol releases me. I find myself avoiding Keith's gaze.

"Kaden." I smile slightly and stop in front of my chair. He is already much too huge for it. Lengthwise. He dwarfs the chair and I find myself wanting to settle in the chair across the room. I start to turn, opening my mouth to say I'd just sit over there. His hands sweep out and he turns my back to the arm of the chair. Cuddling me close. His arms around me. I take a deep breath for stability and find myself intoxicated by his scent.