Wherever You Are

Chapter 1: Jonah's Unsent Letter

March 23, 2014

Dear Felicia,

I finished the school year early. It's what you would have wanted. It's what was best for the both of us. I saw you at school everyday for the last month that I was there. I saw how much it hurt you everyday. I hated myself. Who am I kidding? I still do. I hurt you so much. Everyday I saw you it was a reminder of the biggest mistake of my life. If I could take it back, I would. There is nothing I regret more. Since I hurt you, I knew it was only fair that I be the one to leave. I told Seth right before I left. I left you a letter and headed out. I had hurt you so much and it wasn't fair for me to be around anymore.

I'm in Vermont now. I'm living with Andrew and my mom. I finally convinced her to get out of there. A few nights before I left I found a pregnancy test in the bathroom. It was my moms. It was positive. She's having another baby. My father doesn't know. We left after he went to work and we didn't say anything. We just picked everything up and left.

He's not smart enough to call the cops and get me back so I'm not worried. Andrew will take care of us. I kind of feel bad for just showing up and ruining anything he had going. We had no other option. He understood.

He asked about you. I had to explain what happened. He agreed that I messed up. He said he missed you. I miss you too. I wish I could have done the right thing. It was stupid what I did. It was horrible. You shouldn't forgive me. Ever. Let me live with this grief. I don't deserve any forgiveness from anyone.

Finishing the year early went well. I got all my tests done. I studied hard. The first time we hung out I asked for help in math. I never really needed the help. I just wanted to hang out with you. I'm actually really good at math. The rest of the subjects went well too. Well, everything except history. I hate history. But I did it. I did it for you and my mom. I needed to help the both of you. I couldn't have stayed even if I hadn't screwed up. After I found out that she was pregnant staying wasn't an option.

Things are going to be complicated here for a while. I bet you're happy that you got me out of your life now. There's a whole big mess I'll be dealing with, with my father for a while. It's best that you aren't involved. I want you safe.

I'm probably boring with all of this. I just miss you so much. I will never forgive myself. I hope you are doing well. I hope you make new friends and find a new boyfriend. I hope you find a guy that treats you like the princess you are. You deserve only the best and that's what you will get. I know you will. Some guy will sweep you off your feet. I really miss you. I guess that's all for now though.

I still love you,

Jonah

Hey everyone. I'm so sorry this is so short and it has been so long since I have posted anything. If you haven't read the first book you probably didn't know what was going on, so I recommend you read that one first unless you enjoy being confused. If so feel free to continue with this one. Also these are unsent letters. Just another reminder to resolve any other confusion. Please let me know what you think of this letter idea. Thank you.