Heathens

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For once I wanted someone to look at me and feel pride at far I came, from who I was anyways. The way their lips would curl into that special smile. Maybe their eyes would tear up, who knows but it'd be neat if that happened for once. Instead all I have is people looking at me in disgust or hate. I never felt so disgusting or hated, and unwanted in my life before. This is always what happens if someone knows me and heard things about me. When all I want is to be forgiven for my sins, even if I was still to be bound in the sheets of hell. I'm a very horrible person, I'm not being insecure even the slightest. I used to feel pride in making others feel horrible, treating them with no respect, just nothing. A huge empty space that they were, but I wish I didn't. They're dead now. No, not by suicide. Except I felt what they felt when she came into my life, I saw the horror she received. Even then I was horrible to her but I tried not to be. No one really changes, we all try to change but we can't. Which sucks because that feeling of pride was what I needed. it reminded me of the day that I became her hero...

Yes, I'm be cliché. A girl came into my life and changed me, but this isn't our time to be..

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"Stop it... Leave me alone." She whispered as Marie, one of the bigger girls. Marie was "thick" as she describes herself, but other people have a complete different word. Not knowing what word it is but their description of "thick" is big ass, boobs, but tiny waist. She didn't quite have an ass, small waist, but she did have big boobs. She was also a bit smaller than Paige Helms, but still managed to do shit.

"Why slut? Too bad Eric isn't here to save you anymore." Marie laughed. I saw Paige's friends in the distance, they wouldn't make it and I couldn't stand seeing her cry for some reason. Paige was beautiful, but a mess. A beautiful catastrophe she was and Jesus Christ, I never saw anything more amazing. I never saw brown eyes as beautiful but I saw hers and no words can describe the sight of a million galaxies. The sun shined on her eyes and it was like golden rays, the sunset was in her eyes.

"I can fight my own fights but I rather not fight at all." Paige said, looking Marie in the eyes. All Marie did was push Paige and laugh.

"You're weak, you're skinny! Ain't no one want bones." She kept trying to push Paige. Smirking as they neared stairs.

"No one wants a bitch, unless they're a mutt." I cut in pushing Paige away before she got punched, instead I did. Paige fell down and scraped her knee but she looked at me worried.

"No one wants you, you fucking stalker." I felt a pain hit my chest, I don't know if it was me not being sly enough or seeing her hurt. All my attention is on her and I never felt this way for anymore before. Yeah, I've seen her around, followed her (Not trying to be creepy but rather talk to her). She rubbed her knee and winced, she wasn't in tears. I'm just happy she didn't fall down the stairs. Her and I would make an odd pair, a senior and a freshman. Except, I was popular and about parties. She was about her grades, music, and passion.

"I want him." Paige stated, getting up. As Marie scoffed, rolling her eyes. Walking away, she never really bothered Paige after. Then Paige kind of stuck around me after that. I made sure she was never out of my sight, unless she was in class.

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I realized only one person looked at me like that and I'm completely in love with her. She knows everything I did and stayed, even though she may be my best friend only, I still love her. I know she'd never feel the same for me ever. I look back at her now, she's not safe. They're taking her away from me as I say. She's screaming my name as my team takes me away, the guards taking her. She is crying, I know what she's thinking. She thinks she'd never see me again. I honestly don't know if she would. Either way I'm saving her for now, as long as I sacrifice what's left of me. They knock her out and I yell at them to not hurt her or I'll go after them. The world may have ended 3 months ago but I'll still do anything for her, even if she isn't my responsibility. I pray to thee that this plan works, I don't want her being unconscious as my last memory of her ever. At least I know where she'd be if my team and I make it out. I give the guards the signal and they leave, closing the doors as they leave outside of the gates. There was 10 of us to hopefully kill this hoard of the infected bitches. We did a rough count, we kill half of the 300 and send in the bombs. I was skinny and tall but I wore baggy clothes, I was also tall stood at 6'3. I wasn't weak nor the strongest in the team but I was good enough to stay alive. I hope this works, either way in the end we still save them, but I save her. Either die trying or succeeding at this. I run to the truck putting all the guns and ammunition in the back. Ryder and Cap get into the driver and passenger seat while I stay out on the back. Ethan, Vic, and Alec join me in the back. Four get into the backseat of the truck, while Nathan gets into a dirt bike, ready to throw the bombs.

"Cap give us an inspiring speech." Yelled Vic into the back window. We saw the hoard into the distance no longer small looking ant things. He went on about things I didn't care about, my family and loved ones. Only thing I care about was her and her well being. In the end her went on about how he'd be a great father if he knew the things he knew now....

"For our loved ones." He yelled and we drove off towards the hoard. My hands were shaking, I only did this on video games. Never in real life because we didn't think the apocalypse would happen. Only thing that was on my mind was her. Just her and it scared me. I love her and I can't lose her, not now or ever. I rather be just friends than anything less. I'm willing to sacrifice everything left of me for her.

Paige Emily Helms, is the love of my life. She's a small ball of perfection, art, passion, and beauty. May the Gods of whatever sort, that I doubt we have any left, save her. She's the only good left in the world. Her soul is pure, if we can see sounds hers would be white and the brightest.

I miss the way she'd sleep soundly to All Time Low, as I drove her back from school. We used to go to the same, but after the Marie thing she left to a new school. I'd always took her out to eat with all the money I had since I left Greece. My step-sister married into a rich family and so she gives our family money, I didn't want any but now with me wanting to provide for Paige. I must take it, all if I must. I wanted to be a good man, even though I was far from it.

I guess now after everything going on, no ones past matters much. We all know we had one but this is now, we are now. We all die, we all killed someone who was once innocent. Now we just continue with our lives as if this is normal. Killing dead but somehow working bodies.

"Kyle, focus!" They yelled at me and I shook my head as I ready my gun. I'm not going to lose her ever. I'm going to die if it meant she's alive.

"Here they come.. I'm sorry." I whispered as we started to fire at the hoard.

This may be the end.