HarmonizeOurLives : Sequal!

Chapter 22

Camila POV

i wake up again in this hospital setting, i hate it. i look around and i dont see lauren.. or nathan... i havent even gotten to see my own baby!... i sit up and look around, i drnik some water and the nurse walks in " hey sleepy head .. how are you this morning ms. cabello " i smile " im great.. i feel ... rested " she smiles and checks my monitors " are you ready too see your son?" i nod vigerously and she cleans around the room about " alright just give me a minute " i nod and she walks out of the room.. i see Lauren, Dinah and Mani rush in " BABE!" lauren runs to me and hugs me tight, i giggle and kiss her " lolo i missed you " she smiles and sits at my bed " hows nathan?" i ask and she gives m a weak smile which worries me " hes fine... theres just a problem of a undeveloped Cerebrum but... itll be fine camz " i look at her weird about to ask her what it means but then the nurse walks in " here he is " i smile and i see the paper in the front that says our names and i look at the cute baby inside " awww hes so tiny!" i giggle and i put my hand on the incubator " when can we hold him?" i can " in about 24 more Hours... you can take him home then" i nod ..  i stare at this little foriegn human for what seems like hours and lauren kisses my cheek " what do you think?" i shrug and the little baby smiles " hes cute " ... i feel weird like if i dont know him. Arent moms suppose to have this amazing connection with their baby?.. i feel nothing. i mean hes cute but all babies are... ummm is something wrong with me?... " babe?" i say quitly " yeah?" she turns to me " do you feel anything with him like... a connection " she nods and smiles " hes so perfect camila.. you make beautiful babies " she kisses my forhead and i smile fakely to her. " yeah.... " i lay back in my bed " you okay?" lauren asked " just tired babe " i lied... " alright ill leave you so you can rest " i nod and she kisses my lips " i love you camila " i smile and hug her tight .. i wave bye to the girls and they walk out of the room.. after a minute i sit up and look at nathan again...hes asleep .. i cant belive he came out of me.. he has my DNA.... its crazy to think about.. the nurse came in and sat next to me " whatchya think?" i shrug " i dont feel anything with him you know?" i say confying in her " dont worry.. alot of moms dont. it takes time just realize that..." i nod and she gives me a akward but friendly side hug " are you really tired like lauren said?" i giggle and shake my head no " i just had to think alone " she nods and smiles " well.. lauren is an amazing wife.. shes been here all day every hour every minute.. " i smile and i feel my cheeks heat up " yeah shes amazing " the nurse smiles then walks out the door and i walk around the room... these wires are annoying me but i just leave it... i look out the window and i see birds, theres a tiny one and a bigger one... the bigger one is cleaning the little one.. i guess thats its mommy.. i look to nathan i sigh.. im gonna try to be the best mommy for this little kiddo.. i get back in my bed pulling the incubator closer and i just stare at him for hours.

Lauren POV

" somethings wrong with camila " dinah says and i look at her weird " what do you mean D?" i ask while we eat in the cafetiria " i say in her eyes... i have no clue what it is but when she looked at nate there was something wrong " i nod and continue to eat " ill ask her later " 

When we finish eating we go up stairs and i walk in the room to see camila looking at a sleeping nathan " hey baby " I smile and she sits up " hi... " i sigh and sit next to her " okay whats wrong cabello " she giggles and burries her face in my neck " i dont feel that mommy connection with him " i look at her and she has sadness in her eyes " its alright baby itll come " she nods and i kiss her forhead " just rest babe dont worry about it " she lays back and i kiss her cheek ... she starts to fall asleep and i go outside sayning bye to Dinah and mani who i told to go home since nothing is happneing anyway.. they nod and say they will be back tomorrow with Cynthia and Ally so we can bring Nathan home.. i sit in the room and look up what camila is talking about on my Ipad... the only thing that comes us is Postpartum Depression that says a mom can feel distant from the baby and become suicidal the first couple of months and i feel my head break... i have to talk to camila about this.