I've been crying ever since around 5:30 today. I can't stop...it's now 10:30. a full 5 hours of crying. partially because I miss her like hell, and she can't come tell me bye. and the majority of the reason is telling my parents. I don't want to. it's the right thing to do yes but I can't lose Sydney. not as a friend too. I would give anything to have her happy as can be to be my girlfriend and my parents be okay with it. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't drink. I can't think. I know my parents'll probably take her from me once they find out I talked to her online. they'll be so mad. they'll wanna kill me. I wouldn't trade a moment I spent with her. the kiss will forever be within my heart. as will she. I might make an actual fanfic out of my tragic love story. I might write poetry. I will write more about her and give daily reports to how her and I both are doing. I am going to try my hardest to be okay. goodnight. - bay.
