Letters to Zayn

Chapter 16

Zayn stayed in London for that day and then had to go back on tour. He never came back to me to explain everything. He probably thought that it wasn't so serious or that I wouldn't mind all those articles online and in the newspapers. It's like wherever I go I see all those headlines declaring that I'm the bad guy in all of this. I'd say that it's Zayn who appearently can't finnish one relationship and gets on a new one.

He didn't come back, but he did call me on skype to apologise. But before that he decided to easen up my mood and it worked at least a little bit. Zayn was obviously spending time with Niall, so they decided to film some lame rap, it was like a love confession, Niall did it in a scottish accent. His attempt did make me laugh. He might not have even understood some of the words. So after that followed our one hour chat with Zayn on skype. Thank God for this invention.

*back to the conversation*

" Hey, I already miss you! Sorry I had to run out like that"

"Is that what you're sorry for?" I was happy that we had our cameras off, he couldn't see how hurt I was from my facial expression.

"What do you mean? And hey, how did you like our video?"

Changing the subject, so typical of him.

"I mean all the newspapers are full of crap, saying that you cheated on Perrie with me."

"Well didn't I? Sort of"

Did he really just say that or did I mishear him?

" So you're not gonna do anything about it? You'll let the whole world think that I was just a one night stand or whatever, a short time replacement of her?" I wonder if  Zayn heard the shock and disgust in my voice as clearly as I did.

" What is there to do? It's not like all those newspapers actually care about what happened. Plus the management is already mad at me for this scandal, that's why they turned everything the way it is now. Everyone thinks that I went to meet her so I could explain it to her, while I in fact broke up with her."

A minute of silence. Did he really or is he just saying it? No, there's no way he would just say that to me, he's not a liar.

"You.. you really broke up with her?"

"Well I told you I would, so I did. Our relationship was getting freezing cold anyway even before everything you told me, I was going to do it anyway. And now that we're on tour I won't have to deal with all that publicity stuff about mine and Perrie's relationship."

" I am happy that you are a man of your word." I said with a smile on my face though he couldn't see it anyway.

"Have to run now, got a rehearsal in 15 minutes, talk to you later!" He said and hung up not giving me a chance to say good bye.

As soon as the conversation had ended I went to see what's good on twitter. What I saw was crazy, impossible to explain. My name was trending worldwide. In some cases I could be happy but right now it can't mean anything good. I click the trend with a fear in my heart and I was right. It's no good.