Take My Hand

Let You Help Me

Within ten minuets of hanging up the phone Stevie was answering her door to the person knocking, she wasn't surprised at who it was

"Lindsey?"

"Are you serious?"

"Yes Lindsey I'm serious, I'll let you help me" before Stevie could say anything else Lindsey crushed her into a tight hug

"Thank you! I can't wait to experience this with you, we didn't really get the chance last time"

"I know Linds" she rubbed the back of his neck, she knew that always soothed him when he was sad

Inviting him in from the doorway he walked in and sat down on the sofa in the living room, Stevie taking a seat next to him

"What made you change your mind?"

"I just couldn't imagine getting rid of this baby, and I can't do it all by myself, and I know that you will help me, and be all that I need right now"

"Thank you for letting me help you!"

"Thank you for the offer, but I don't want you to forget about Carol, she's the woman that is actually having your baby!"

"Hm, yeah I won't"

"What does that mean?"

"Nothing...So what about Don?" the speed he changed the topic did not go unnoticed by Stevie

"He's made it clear that he doesn't want anything to do with this baby, and I don't want him around them if he's like that"

"No I understand that"

They spent the rest of the evening just talking to each other, they realised they hadn't spoken properly in so long and they had both missed it, they were able to laugh and joke and it was like nothing bad between them had ever happened

It was time for Lindsey to leave, he got up and Stevie walked him to the door, she gave him a long hug, thanked him again and pulled away, Lindsey got caught up in the moment and leaned in to kiss her, Stevie moving her head backwards so he couldn't

"Sorry...I didn't mean to do that, I got a little caught up in the moment"

"It's okay, it's not like that though, it won't be...It can't be, your just here to help, you do understand that don't you?" Stevie watched his face fall and it broke her heart

"Yeah I'm sorry, it won't happen again" and with that he walked away, leaving Stevie feeling terrible, because all she wanted was for him to kiss her and she could do it back, she wanted and needed him more than anything

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The next show rolled around and went well, Lindsey noticing that Stevie seamed clean tonight, which he was thankful for, he didn't want her harming herself or the baby with more cocaine than she had already. The performance had ended and they all congregated backstage, Christine had already lit up the pot she was currently smoking

Lindsey was sitting down with Carol Ann and Stevie was talking to John, he was watching her and she didn't look to great, she kept messing with her skirt and placed her hands on her stomach for a split second, only Lindsey would have got why, she walked off after a minuet down the hall, Lindsey leaving it a few minuets then excusing himself from the air he said was to thick, he of course went straight to find Stevie, walking into the various rooms then finally seeing her laying on the couch in one of the more secluded areas

"Steph?" She turned her head to look at him a tear rolling down her face

"Honey what's the matter?" Lindsey got on his knees beside her and stroked the hair from her face

"I feel so sick, I can't stand up without feeling like falling back down, I had to stop talking to John because I was going to pass out"

"Oh sweetie, that is the joy of being pregnant I'm afraid" 

"But this is horrible, it's the worse feeling ever"

"Yes it might be, but imagine the feeling when they are in your arms!" he moved his hand down and ran circles with his palm over her stomach, Stevie smiling and covering his hand with her own

"Yeah your right! I forgot to ask will you be with me when I actually give birth?"

"Do you want me to be?" Stevie looked at him and nodded

"Then I will be!"

"Thank you!"

Stevie got herself up and walked back with Lindsey to the others, saying he was going to drive her home, Carol of course huffing about it, saying goodbye to everyone they walked out to his car, when they arrived back at Stevie's Lindsey was invited in, him accepting and making himself comfortable once again on the couch

"Want to listen to a record?" Stevie asked, Lindsey saying that would be nice, and choosing one, she picks it because it's what she wants to say to Lindsey, she puts on How Can I Tell You

"What did you pick?"

"A Lani Hall cover of a Cat Stevens song" Stevie stands up and puts her hand out to Lindsey, she wants to dance so he stands and snakes his arm around her waist as she gets closer to him and places her head on his chest, snuggling and closing her eyes as they start to move to the slow music

how can i tell you
that i love you
i love you
but i can't think of right words to say
i long to tell you
that i'm always thinking of you
i'm always thinking of you
but my words just blow away  

Lindsey knew what Stevie was trying to say by playing this song for him, so he pulled her closer, kissing her head

It always ends up to one thing honey
And I can't think of right words to say 

Stevie lifts up her head and looks at Lindsey, singing along to the song, looking directly into his eyes

wherever i am babe,
i'm always walking with you
i'm always walking with you
but i look and you're not there  

A few tears were threatening to escape her eyes so she wrapped her arms around Lindsey's neck and buried her face there, Lindsey knew this song so he decided to carry on where Stevie left off, having the same feelings about this song as Stevie

whoever i'm with
im always, always talking to you
im always talking to you
but i'm sad that you can't hear
so sad that you can't hear
it always ends up to one thing honey
when i look and your not there
i need to know you
need to feel my arms around you
feel my arms around you                                                                                                                                                         like a sea around the shore   

each night and day i pray and hope that i might find you
hope that i might find you
because hearts can rule no way
it always ends up to one thing honey
still i kneel upon the floor.  

Pulling back once the song had finished Lindsey placed his hands on the side of Stevie's face, wiping away the tears with his thumbs, placing his forehead to hers and rubbing their noses together

"I know we don't always know the right words to describe what we feel for each other but I do know that saying I love you is always the right ones" Stevie cried even harder

"I love you" She simply said, Lindsey not caring what she had said before moving his head down to take her lips in a loving romantic kiss

"I wish this wasn't such a mess"

"I do to baby, but I'm here, I'm here for you and your baby okay? You need anything at all you call me, even if its just to get you a glass of water you understand" Stevie nodded and hugged him once more, they both knew this wouldn't be an easy time for them, but they would try to make the best out of this

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