Take My Hand

Absolutely Not

It had been two days and still Lindsey had not opened his eyes, the media was having a field day, the main headline was that Lindsey had done what he had on purpose, speculation then going round was why, was it the band? Stevie? Something else? Stevie just wanted him awake because she needed him, she needed to see those eyes once more, she had a feeling in the pit of her stomach that she was going to lose Lindsey and the last thing they ever did was have a blazing row

Stevie was sitting by his bedside reading when someone knocked the door

"Yes?"

"Miss Nicks, there's a visitor for Mr Buckingham" The receptionist informed her

"Okay, who?"

"A Miss Harris"

"NO! ABSOLUTELY NOT!" Stevie shot up

"Calm down Miss Nicks"

"No, where is she?"

"Out in the hall" without another word Stevie walked out the door and into the hall, spotting Carol Ann and dragging her by the arm until she was outside the building

"Get your hands off me, how dare you!"

"NO HOW DARE YOU! YOU WILL NOT SEE HIM!" Stevie continued to shout shocking the other woman

"I can see him if I want to!"

"This is all your fault, I don't want you anywhere near him" Stevie cried

"All my fault? I'm not the one who told the man I love that I believed claims against him of domestic abuse, he's in this place because of you Stevie, you made him hate himself so much"

"SHUT UP, SHUT UP!" Stevie cried holding her head and rocking, before anything else could happen they heard another voice

"Get the fuck away from her!" Christine had just got out of a cab and was running over

"How dare you even show your face here, after all you've done and lied about, you should be ashamed of yourself, now get in the car and piss off!" Carol Ann said no more, she had always been terrified of Chris, so she did as her told

"Oh sweetheart..." Christine wrapped her arms around Stevie and rocked her from side to side

"She's right Chrissy, Its my fault he's in that bed! It should be me" she continued to cry

"Don't ever speak like that again! This is not your fault Carol Ann just got into your brain, now go back to him, if he wakes up and you aren't there he will be upset" the two women went back inside and returned to Lindsey, Chris stayed for a few hours before leaving, saying to phone her if she needs anything

Stevie sat on the edge of Lindsey's bed and once again made him touch where the baby inside her was, she just spoke casually making small talk hoping he would hear her

"When they are born we can take them to the beach as a little family and you can see how she likes the water been as you love your swimming! Just don't tell my mom because she would kick both our asses for putting the baby in sea water when they are so little!" Stevie laughed to herself

"Mmm and your mom is fierce!" Stevie's head shot up at the groggy voice, she saw those blue eyes that she loved looking back at her

"Linds!" she cried pressing the button to alert the nurses, them running in to see what was happening

"Back with us I see Mr Buckingham!" Once the team rid Lindsey of all of the cables coming from him they made sure he was comfortable and left him alone with Stevie again, telling her to press the button again if he even so much felt sick

"Did you do this on purpose?" Stevie didn't beat around the bush at all, she had to know, Lindsey said nothing, he just nodded

"Why?" Tears came at his answer

"Because the woman that I love more than anything on the planet thought I had it in me to be violent to a woman, you believed Carol Ann of all people over me...and Stevie you told me you didn't want me around them" He pointed to her middle "That broke my heart Steph, I accepted them as my own since the second you told me about them and I made that offer, and you said you didn't trust me enough not to harm her, I would let that harm come to myself before it every came to them or you! I didn't want to live in a place where you didn't trust me, i seem to always hurt you and I thought if I wasn't around to do that anymore then you would be happy and wouldn't be sad anymore..." By the end they were both in tears 

"Linds, I would rather die than live in this world without you! You are the only man I would ever want my baby growing up around! I'm so sorry baby, so sorry I believed her and not you, I'm not right in my own head right now, if I was I would have never ever taken a word she said seriously, please forgive me I beg of you...I can't do this without you"

Lindsey pulled Stevie by the arm and motioned for her to lay next to him, he wrapped him self around her as best he could and kissed her head

"It will take a while for me to fully forgive you, but I'm willing to try" Stevie cried

"Lindsey please don't ever do anything like that again, I thought I had lost a piece of me forever"

"I won't I promise"

"I love you" 

"And I you"

"Linds?" Stevie spoke after a minuet of silence

"Mmm?"

"You said her"

"What?"

"When you were speaking about the baby you said her..."

"Yeah I feel like its a girl, I don't know why"

"I hope it is a girl! We will have to come up with some names"

"I have one I like already" He said

"You do?"

"Yeah, I really like Elizabeth"

"Our little Lizzie, I love it!"

For the next few hours they spoke about what they would do as a family, they were both so excited, they just hoped that they didn't run into anymore obstacles...but they both knew that obstacles just loved getting in their way...