I Am Psycho

Amour

His chest was warm against my back and soon cold removing himself. "I know you wanted carrots, so I'll pay for it." I stepped back wide eyed, processing what he had just said, "Why?" I feel more surprised than anything now, but I'm slightly attracted to it. He looks at me with his beautiful pearls, stopping for a moment and continues on to pay for everything. Without getting stuck. "It needs a special touch." He says it with confidence showing on his face, "Oh wow." I say lamely getting my bag. He laughs leaning on the machine.

"What's your name?" He gives me this look of actual curiosity, making me fluffy inside. I feel myself start to sweat not knowing what to say, my mind flips through pages of words describing him, I'm at a loss of words now. I sit there panicked, trying to recall my name whilst he stares at me, reading me like a book.

Damn Trinity, say something I'm giving up on you!

"I'm...Trin-ity!" I bring myself to say, I want to move but I can't get away from the lock he has on me. He parts his lips for a second, probably pondering his moves.

"I'm Lou." My heart falls into my stomach, eyes stinging, I nod my head then run away, trying my best not to cry infront of all these people. Lou starts calling after me, but soon enough, his voice fades into darkness.

I'm standing in snow and in the distance I can see the desert and an oasis. Looking around I see Lou standing outside a gate to a castle like mansion, he waves at me. I didn't want him to see me, so I turn back to the oasis to see Loui. He's doing something, but I can't see it clearly, once he spots me, he waves aswell, I can't help, but smile at his action. I look to the sky briefly then back. Now both of them are standing in front of me staring straight ahead, snow falls on Loui's side and visible heat waves are behind Lou, creating a borderline between them. Staring into Loui's eyes, I feel so torn and helpless and angry...I slap him. No reaction. I kiss him, no reaction. I start crying, wanting him to come back to me desperately. I've been hurt by people I loved, and yeah, it's hard to get over, but I can't forgive for all the wrong they've done to me. But Loui, I need somehow. To be loved, cared for, desired. "Save me." I say, falling into darkness.

Lou's face was close to mine when I came back to reality. Every little feature and detail I could see clearly, he smiles at me when I maintain consciousness, showing off his hidden dimple, much to where mine was located. "I'm glad your awake." There was a pause in nature, just silence. His eyes reflect mine as we just sat there admiring each other's existence. Well I hope so.

"Hey Lou- what the hell!" A very angry girl stands in front of us, her eyes are darting from me to him. "Where am I." I say plainly not giving a damn about her. Lou stays in place being calm, he was about to say something until she cut him off, "Don't play dumb bitch now, you know exactly why your here! To take my boyfriend! I'm gonna beat your-" I give her the ultimate death stare as I stand up cutting her off with harsh words, "You're gonna what? Beat me up? Yeah right quit bluffing, ha." I get ready parting my legs a little.

"Fight me then!" She yells getting in my face. She lifts her fist then strikes, but I catch her, "Maril, can you please shut the fuck up and let me talk." Lou steps in between us facing me. "I brought you here because you fainted in the street, I'll take you back home." His soft voice was calming, how passive. Maril over here, frowns at me then flicks her middle at me, I try to ignore it. Lou winks at me then turns to her, "You know we're not dating right, do I need to take you to the hospital, and stop using the emergency key!" She hugs him tightly not letting go, "Lou don't leave me I love you! I'm sorry!" I step out of the dark room, looking for my things.

What a sad girl she is.

The house I was in was bigger than expected, like way bigger than anything I had been in. The house had a classy style to it, antiques, hand made furniture by the looks of it. I walk into a random room and the first thing I notice is a large gold trim with crosses all over it, all of them look so pretty and shiny with designs, there was one in the middle missing about the same size as mine. I look down at it and try anyways, even though it doesn't match the style of glitz and glam. I hear her stomp down the hallway and away from me. I take off the necklace and put it up there, fitting perfectly inside.

There was a click, which scared me, so I immediately took it out. Lou walks in just in time to see me taking out the cross. "What are you doing." He says coming towards me, not stopping, until I hit the wall. "Huh?!" I say now stranded, he lowers his face to meet mine eye to eye, I'm not breathing anymore. He brings his lips closer mine, placing his on mine, and he kissed me softly. My eyes wide open, I'm frozen, unable to think. He steps back and a finger under my chin, "I've loved you for a long time now." He pulls me into a hug, "What do you mean by, love!?" I say struggling against him, he wraps his arms around my waist. "I love you and your personality. I wont hurt you like...him." My heart drops at his words, the chance to just see him again may be in the future. It has to be. "Where is Loui?" My voice shakes, there's a long pause, "He loves you, but not as much as I do." "I don't know you! I'm probably gonna get get savaged at school now because of you. Why aren't you guys at school?!" I must have missed something if no one is going to school. And why did he change the subject! I know he saw what I was doing.

"School starts tomorrow." He squeezes me, "Really..." I sighed. So I just got up for no reason, wow, my friends are so dumb. "Ok, let go."
I push him away, wanting answers. "What happens when I put in the cross? WHO are you?! How do you know Loui?! And why did you... you...KISS me!?" He looks over at the cream wall where the gold trim is. I walk over and put my cross in again, "Trinity, stop!"

It clicks again then Lou hurries to pull it out, but it's too late. The gold plate moves into the wall, creating a hole to a place, a place I've never seen before, pink tall trees I see. I feel sick, Lou glances over at me, "You're willing..." He goes silent, like he was waiting for something. I hear footsteps outside the door. "No..." Lou whispers looking around the small room. "Hey Lou, it's me, why are you hiding?" I know that voice, a voice I craved to hear again, Loui. Lou grabs me covering my mouth, putting me in the hole. I fight his hold screaming. "Put me down! Now, blasthead!" He falls on me, the door opens to reveal Loui. All of his features the same way I remembered, angelic green eyes, sharp jaw, pretty lips, visible collar bones and brass brown hair.

Lou smiles at him, "It's exactly what it looks like." I shake my head quickly and slap him. Loui stares at me with a look of hunger in him, "What are you doing with her." He says it with an offensive attitude. Lou didn't even react to my hit, just sat there and smiled. I'm sitting here, feelings hurt, pushing Lou off me. I felt helpless, like there was nothing I could say to change Loui's made up mind, whatever that was. There was silence in the room. Did Loui use me for my blood, he must have found better. Oh well I don't care. "Loui, why are-" "Don't you have to go somewhere." He says harshly, still staring. "It wasn't what it looked li-" "As in leave." He crosses his arms and leans on the door frame. I think I'll go and stuff my face with ice cream at home now. "You can believe whatever you want to believe." I hope that meant something to him, "How long do you wish to speak!" Loui sighs heavily, now glaring. "Don't talk to me, both of you!" I feel my inside quiver and I want to cry so badly, "Wasn't planning to anytime soon." His words broke me, I couldn't listen to it any longer. Why does this always happen to me, I'll never, not even in death forgive him for such rudeness. Lou clears his throat, which reminds me. "Give me my cross." Lou facepalms, Loui looks surprised, and I look infuriated. "Cross?" Loui looks at Lou expectantly and he sighs, I go over and hit an out of place button and the gold trim returns with my cross. "Thank God." Loui hugs me from behind, and Lou trys to pry him off. I give no emotions, take my cross and run out. "Trinity wait!" Loui and Lou start calling after me, but I made my mind. I will never see them again.
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