Letters to Romeo
Alright. Your friends know now, and honestly I have no idea if that's good or not. You could be jumping around your room or you could be sitting on your bed, brushing your fingers through your hair trying to choose between me or her. Maybe you don't even believe them. I hope you're jumping around or choosing me. I don't care how you do it, just choose me.
(Awkward transition)
I think about you, and think about our moments. That field trip where you sat next to me on the bus. Those football games. Math class. English, where you let me win. All of last year. ESS last year. Wow. I think about our bad moments. Whenever I talk about Brandon. Whenever you go to lunch and ignore me. When you ignored me on the field trip. You don't get how much I do for you do you? Can you count how many pencils I've loaned you? Who was there in those classes you had no friends? Who is there when you don't do your homework? Me. I'm there for you. But, she isn't. All she does is write your name on her planner and binder and everywhere. She talks about me to other people. She tells other people you only like me for my last name so that's what I think. I know good and well you would never say that about me. She might be your girlfriend, but I'm your girl best friend. I got three syllables. She has two. BAM. You don't do things with her like you do with me. I'm there for you. I used to be that girl who had all your classes and was smart. Now I'm your best friend. Now I'm your trumpet player friend. Now I'm the one you can trust who you can count on. The one who won't give up on you. Why can't you be that for me? Why can't you be my saxophone player? I honestly don't know if I can count on you anymore. I honestly don't know if you stay with me. You're my best friend. You're the person I think I've fallen in love with. You're the only person I want. Whenever I hear your name, or a nick name of yours, I smile, and a billion memories fly into my mind. When you walk by, I get butterflies. When you say my name, I want to record it and listen to it all the time. I just hate that she's in the mix. I never truly was hurt until Jordan told me that you were dating her. My heart stopped and it hasn't started going again since. IM A ZOMBIE RAWR! Lol jk. I will never forget that feeling. I just looked at you, and I broke. That was the day the hurting began. I didn't know I liked you until that day. I don't know what happened... Maybe I realized that you do want someone, and I wanted it to be me. I don't know! It's been almost 6 months now. I don't know where to cry, slap you, or scream. Because maybe you're bored. Maybe you have your eye on getting me. If I find out what a rival is then I'll be cool. I could sit here, and tell you everything about you I love. I'd be here forever. I could tell you our memories but you already know. I know you have photos of us saved in your phone. I do too.
I just think, maybe I should
Just stop and forget you and focus on Him so She can get her way. HAHAHAHAHAHA. So funny. I know you think about me sometimes, because your mom says you talk about me all the time. I talk about you all the time too. Maybe if that's the same, maybe we do like each other. Maybe we will be together. Maybe she will be history. Maybe every minute we are together really counts.
Maybe we have something.
