Chapter 18
.What hurts is... You're going to be my doctor, and I'll be you rose. Ending the same way. Leaving, but you never saying what you've always wanted to, but never did. If you even wanted to. Never seeing each other, yet you go on about your business saving the world, and picking up girls and breaking their heart as well. Just one of the other ones. One of the other girls you'll never speak of. Cheating at dying, wearing bow ties, never stopping. Never thinking of me. Never turning back. Two hearts don't break at the same time. Saving the world. Never crossing my path. I'm safe, and you risk your life like I used to. This bad wolf had been slain. You shot a bullet through my heart like a fork through cake. Happy to do it. We do everything, I've left other guys because I fell for you. Everything, and you just move on, leaving me. Traveling to a new dimension in that Tardis. I still have the key. I still have every memory. I still remember everything. The way you acted when you get nervous... Just... I don't know. Yes, I've got someone else but I don't have you. You are what I need... But we won't cross paths again. We can't. Physically impossible.
I hate that I'm not the reason you smile anymore. I'm
Not. And it hurts. You're my biggest fandom, my favorite celebrity, my favorite place to be, and you mean more than Disney World to me. And all of my friends know that's a big deal. I reread all of our messages and smile like an idiot. I go through our old pictures, and remember everything you said. Those moments will be gone to you. Gone. Plain rubbish. I'll be rubbish in your future just because you never said...
"Rose Tyler, I-"
