Trauma /FF//

Twenty-One Fear

**A/N**This is the secomd last chapter,please comment and vote..Thanks!Enjoy (:

*Hansol's Pov*

She's gone.

Kim Eunji is dead.

My body sinked down into the chair as I listened to Eunji's heart monitor line.Instead of the constant beeping it had become one long lined beep that filled the silence room.

She didn't move after the surgery.Her eyes was shut and there was a slight smile on her face.She could be sleeping with peace on her side.Maybe,just maybe,if I believed it hard enough...she'll wake up.She looked like he was sleeping.She could be sleeping...right?

But the long beep from the monitor telled the worlds otherwise.Kim Eunji was dead.She was gone.

The door rushed open andthe nurse rushed in.She was yelling a long strand of "what happened" and "I'm sorry for your loss" and all these other small things people say to other people who were dealing with deprassing situations.

She made her movement quick and precised as she checked for any sign of life in Eunji and then tends to the monitor.

"Hansol?Are you okay?"I turn towards the nurse who had covered Eunji over with the white hospital sheet."Do you need some water or something?"She asked,walking towards me with her arms extended as if she plans on giving me a hug.

I put my head down on my knees and pressed my palms against my eyesocket,turning everything black and spotted with white dots.I was shaking.My hands felt freezing and they tremble against my face.I slide my hands down my face and brushed my wet hair backwards.

"Hey,"A man said and I looked up.It was the doctor.He aat diwn on the floor and crasses his legs infront of me."Are you done?"He said quietly.

I sighed heavily."Yes.I am."My bottom lips quivering so badly that I bite down on it to stop the doctor from seeing it.I took a deep breath.

"Good,now I want to talk to you.I prefer to talk in private as well."

I opened my eyes and told myself to just face the facts.I nod my head."yes"

We walked in silance.The doctor noded and greeted people we pass.They smiled warmly but once they met my eyes their glances dropped to the floor.

"So fear can't be controlled"the doctor said and sat across from me."Fear of death,is one of the most natural fears,correct?"

The doctor stared at me,wondering where I was going with my answer."Yes"

"My point is that fear is as natural as death.You cannot control either of them."I met the doctor's eyes finally.He stared at me confused."Because death,no matter how wrong it feels,is beautiful and a part of life."

The doctor rubbed his chin thinking about it.The doctor got to his feet as well and pulled something out of his white doctor coat.The pink dairy.

"You dropped this"He said and handed it to me."I think you should keep a closer eye on it.You wouldn't want to lose it."

"I would not"I said and held it close to me.Everything Eunji had gone through is written in these pages.Losing it would mean losing her.

I turned to leave the room but decided against it."Doc?"

"Yes,Hansol."

"Can people come back from death?"The doctor and I stared at each other.He knows what's going on in my head.

"Impposible.To stop fear of losing one's self,one must accept the death of those loved.We must not fear of death,but embrace it."

I hope this just a nightmare.