YuZhou Addicted

A Struggle

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Jingyu winced, knowing how dark this part of the story is to become. He's still struggling during the rehearsals, not even wanting to act like an asshole opposite Weizhou. He gave up after several times he stopped when he was supposed to go into the emotions of his role, seeing Weizhou's increased agitation and ire, holding his own role's emotions that wasn't getting anything from Jingyu's Gu Hai.

The director called for a break, and Jingyu fled to the gardens, trying to sort himself out. He knew why he was being this way. Just knowing what he needed to do to Weizhou's character didn't make it less sickening. He wanted to throw up.

Weizhou watched Jingyu's hunched back, huddling on the garden bench underneath the summer heat. He sighed, not really wondering why the guy didn't bother putting on a snapback to protect him from the heat.

It had taken Weizhou awhile to get out of the emotions that the scene they were rehearsing called for. And it was still hard to do considering he had already been taught various acting techniques. He belatedly realized it might not be so for Jingyu, who didn't get this acting gig after years of study. Weizhou had noticed it from the start, how Jingyu needed guidance how to go about acting out his character, never mind how many qualities he shared with Gu Hai. A role is still a role. A scene is still a scene.

Considering how Jingyu had been training in the martial arts and self-defense his whole life, this particular scene required him to assault Bai Luoyin. Weizhou tried to wrap his head around that contradiction and he thinks he understands where Jingyu's difficulty came from.

Jingyu would have preferred that Weizhou didn't join him on the bench. But he didn't stop the other guy either.

"So, how are we going to go about that scene?" Weizhou asked without preamble.

Of all the... Jingyu wanted to groan. But he did the next best thing. He finally threw the tantrum he wanted to do ever since this rehearsal started. He missed the amused look Weizhou threw his way the moment Jingyu lolled about the bench coming up with all expletives his vocabulary gave him.

"This scene is fucking ugly and you're going to hate me once I get into it." Jingyu gritted out from between his teeth with his face turned up to the summer heat. He did give Weizhou the stinky eye once he realized Weizhou was laughing. "Yah!" He didn't like how Weizhou could still be lighthearted about this.

"Jingyu," Weizhou called him affectionately, those smiling eyes focused fully on Jingyu and Jingyu feels a tad better. Weizhou's face took a pensive turn. "Bai Luoyin's already afraid, whether or not Gu Hai's going to get around to assaulting him - things have come about that he suspects his boyfriend, the man he absolutely trusts, can be quiet capable of murder just because of his possessiveness over his boyfriend. And the assault doesn't break him, he's even going to let Gu Hai do it, never mind that he can actually stop it. What breaks him is knowing Gu Hai's doing it because he felt betrayed, and Luoyin knows he was the one who put that look of betrayal on Gu Hai's face, his heart."

Jingyu found himself unknowingly nodding. Weizhou, and the crew, broke it down for him whenever he hit bumps like this, making him understand why his character needed to do things a certain way.

"But I'd still be doing it to you, no matter how it's me acting out Gu Hai."

"Well, how about you look at it this way - you need to do something on the offensive for me to do something on the defensive."

Jingyu immediately flashed to his jujitsu practices. It could work. "But I still have to be angry."

"Look angry, but don't be angry. I think Gu Hai's emotional arc is before and after he goes into the assault - focus your acting there... you feel betrayed enough to want to be violent. The way director said it, we film the assault at a different time - just try to pin me down during that time, let me take care of acting terrified and hurt for Luoyin's sake."