Goodbye Caleb

Will you stay with me?

So I thought I'd be so damn original, about to write a cute Spanna moment, and then... The episode aired😂 I loved it though, it was cuter than anything I could've thought of and I just love Spanna like that! Also wanted to say I finally made a twitter fan-account. I have like 5 followers, but I'll keep you updated about updates,  i'll do polls about what to update first and you can tweet me about the stories (suggestions, reviews, whatever) so follow me: @laurenhaleb
Now, enjoy this new chapter!

The blonde looks up after hearing sounds coming from the bushes. She looks straight into Spencer's eyes. They both don't know what to say. Spencer sits down on the swing next to Hanna.
After a long silence, Spencer decides to speak up.
"I'm sorry, Han. I made a mistake and it took me way too long to realise it."
Hanna's icy blue, mixed with red eyes look pitch black in the dark when she looks at Spencer. She looks different from when she left her house this afternoon. Less mad, but more broken than ever.
"You shouldn't be sorry, I'm the worst friend anyone could ever imagine" Hanna says as her tears fall on her cheeks, unnoticable for Spencer in the darkness that surrounded them.
"No Hanna, you're not. We both made mistakes but you will always be my best friend. I can understand if you don't want me to be yours anymore too, but all I'm asking for, is for you to forgive me. I really, really want you to forgive me." Spencer says, she tries to keep her voice steady but doesn't succeed.
"Ofcourse I still want you as my best friend Spencer, I fucking need you" Hanna says bursting into tears.
"My life, my life is over, Spence." She cries. "I can't do this anymore. I need him. I need to hear his voice, I need to touch him." She says completely breaking down at this point. She buries her face in her hands and cries.
"I know." Spencer whisperes crying.
She reaches her hand out to take Hanna's hand. Hanna accepts it and Spencer gives her hand a little squeeze to show her broken friend support.
"I don't know how to help you, Han." Spencer admitted crying. Maybe that's the worst part of this all. She has to see her best friend broken like this and there's nothing she can do. It breaks her heart.
"You can't Spence" Hanna cries, trying to look for air but not able to find it.
Spencer thinks Hanna is about to hyperventilate and tells her to take in a couple of deep breaths.
She calms down slighly.
"I just don't know how to deal with it. It's this feeling, this pain and it's in my whole body. The whole time. And it hurts. It hurts so bad.
It's like this hole that can never be filled. Something is missing and my body and my mind remind me of it every second of the day. With pain. I don't know how to push it away or how to get trough it. I just know it's been there since the accident and it's unbearable. This guy was my life, Spencer. He was all I ever really worried and cared about besides you girls. Caleb knew me better than anyone. " she takes a deep breath and sniffs. "Why him, seriously why Caleb!?" She then says, tears falling down on their joined hands as bullits.
"I like to believe he's in a better place now Han." Spencer whispers.
Hanna smiles slightly and looks at Spencer.
"We should go home.
Hanna nods.
"Can I stay over?" Spencer says.
"Always" she says smiling the best she can. Which is really, not much. Her voice sounds hoarse after all the crying.
Spencer stands up, still holding onto Hanna's hand and leading her towards the bushes. They fight the branches that block them and eventually get trough, to find Ashley waiting for them in the car. She had seen them on the swings and had decided to leave them alone for a while. They walk towards the car.
"Spence?" Hanna says almost sounding shy.
Spencer, who was about to open the door of the car, turned arround to face Hanna.
"Yeah?"
"I forgive you." Hanna says definite, biting her lip to hold herself from crying.
Spencer can't hold back her tears and opens her arms to hug Hanna tightly.
"I love you Han, you will get trough this on way or another." Spencer whispers in her ear.

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