Goodbye Caleb

I just want him back

Even though it took me two hours and a few break downs, I got ready and I'm on my way.
A car -or more like a funeral limousine- picked me and Em up. Also Toby, Ezra, Aria, Mona and even Alison are in the car. Spencer isn't. I don't know where she is, but I don't have the energy to think about it. Toby and Emily are whispering stuff to each other, but the rest of us are all silent. Just waiting for us to get there. It's not an akward silence. It's not a comfortable silence either. I look out of the window accros from me, behind Ezra. Ezra looks pale. Like he hasn't been sleeping in days. Which he probably hasn't.
there is a cracking sound from under the car. the sound of the wheels that drive over pebbles. A big black fence opens in front of the care. Aria sighs. She doesn't want to go. The driver parks the car. Not that far away from us is a field full of headstones. When I see them I start tearing up. Aria puts her hand on mine and gives it a little squeeze. Just to let me know that it's going to be fine.
Our über opens up the door and helps us all out. A crowd of about 20 people are waiting for us.
All of our parents, friends he made in the past 5 years, a few cousins and I also see his dad. He looks kind of okay actually. My mom walks over to me and hugs me. I immidiately feel that burning pain, first in my chest, going further up to my throat, and finally ending up in my eyes. My mom recognizes the signs of me almost crying.
"Oh no baby, it's fine." She whispers while holding me tight.
The only person who used to be able to calm me down in situations like this, was Caleb. No one could cheer me up and make me feel safe the way he did.
I just want him back, that's all I want.
But he's gone.
He's gone forever.

Decided to do it in parts. 10 votes for this one?😘