Compromises

Anxiety

After he left, the doctor gave his approval for me to go home. After a lot of convincing and begging both my mother-in-law and my mother let me go to my own house.

To be completely honest I'm not ready for this baby. Hell I didn't even plan to have one for another 2 years. How did this happen?

Ayaan's words keep running in my head. Lover? Your lover? What did he mean by that. Does he feel like I've an other man in my life. No. He's probably doing this to hide his own mistakes. As I'm deep in thought my phone starts ringing. Who could this be.

"Hello," I say without bothering to look who's calling.

"Are you okay??" Aiza says in her concerned voice.

"Aiza. Yeah I'm fine. What are you doing?" I ask her.

"I'm coming over. Actually just open the door I'm outside your house," I hang up the phone and open the door, there she is.

She lightly slaps my back and takes me inside.

"What the fuck were you thinking? You really thought all this shit would happen to you and you would just hide it from us? From me?" Aiza starts.

"Here I thought my grade 8 childhood best friend would tell me even her dirtiest secret but here you are," I let out a chuckle which makes her even more angry.

"Aiza, breathe. Calm down! A lot has happened man, I just didn't want to tell anyone you know. Everyone's living their happy lives and shit. Plus I don't want anyone's sympathy,"

"I know you damn well dude. You are dying inside but you want to be left alone, but here I'm and I'm not leaving you alone. I won't tell anyone about everything that has happened until you say so yourself," Aiza says.

I honestly love her to death. Ever since grade 8 she has been with me through thick or thin. I could honestly share anything with her and she will have the same opinion as me. We think alike.

"You bitch!" I yell at her.

"What happened," she asks as she rolls her eyes.

"WHERE IS AISHA," I yell really loud this time.

"Holy shit calm down or else the baby will pop out any second," she says. I give her my best glare possible but she still laughs. Ass.

"I need you to tell me everything from start to up until now what happened," Aiza asks.

"Promise you won't utter a word to both of them. Especially Piri, she's pregnant and stress is not good for her," I tell Aiza and she swears she won't.

As I finish telling her everything my phone rings.

It's Sam.

I look at Aiza and she gives me a 'dont worry' look.

~Sam's POV~

Me and Ahmad leave the hotel to catch our flight. Which by the way is boarding in an hour. Praying we make it in time in side the cab he had called.

The man starts driving and suddenly my brain is also driving down memory lane. Thinking back to what I used to say I laugh at myself.

I would always tell Aiza, Piri and Aliyah that they'll all have husbands but not me. I won't get married years and years later then them if not at all.

But Aliyah always used to say, 'You will dude. You will. When me and your mom pressure you, you will.' Hell this women was right. Here I'm with this man.

To be completely honest, I like him. But I don't love him. I won't be able to love any man whatsoever. Not because I've had a serious breakup or anything but because I just don't believe in love.