Finding a dandelion in the snow

Chapter 5: Another note

Chapter 5

Katniss P.O.V.

After what my friends and I did last week I feel like the whole school is glowing. Like really glowing. It's amazing. Everyone are so happy. I don't hear complains when I walk the corridors anymore.

The students are still giving me thumbs up when I pass them, they still give me pats on my shoulder and real genuine smiles. They still tell me I'm great.

The thing people don't really know about me is that I do have bad self confidence. I love myself, and I love who I am. But sometimes I can feel ugly, or stupid. I can feel like why does people even like me. But than there's other days when I don't feel like that at all. And I feel like that less and less and it feels great.

Peeta knows about my bad self confidence and does everything in his power to make me realize that I'm, according to him, beautiful, sexy, smart and funny.

I mean I guess I'm smart since I came up with the plan that got every student to actually like school. I know I'm smart, there's nothing wrong for a person to admit that they're smart and look good, you should think that about yourself. It's just that when I was in 3rd grade I was bullied and told these things. Years ago I had no self confidence whatsoever. Now I've got a lot, it's only sometimes these thoughts comes to mind. But when they do, I've got Peeta and my friends and family to tell me I'm wrong and I actully believe them.

It's always much better to belive the people who loves you than the people who wants to harm you. It makes you feel so much better and you don't let the bad person win. Instead you win. So yeah I won.

I walk with Annie through the corridor. We've just had calculus exam. We've got exams all day today. It's a little exhausting but school is school.

But I want to become a teacher actully. To help high school students through four, I know to be tough, years. Help them with their confusion, their frustration and their efforts. It's not always easy to be a teenager and you're in high school for basically all of your teenage years, it's hard to battle high school and all the exams with all you're emotions and feelings, girlfriends and boyfriends, friends, friends are not always easy, after school job, all the hours sitting by a bench listening to a teacher when you really would want to be somewhere completely else. I want to help students who need help with school, who need motivation, who feels depressed and sad and everything else. I want to give students hope. I think I can be a great teacher. Dad says I can absolutely be the best teacher.

"God I'm so over these exams", Annie says. She doesn't like school but she's got all the highest grades because she needs a scholarship to Brown University. They told her she'd get a scholarship if she kept up her high grades and her incredible swimming. Annie has as her goal in life to get an OS-medal in swimming. The Olympic Games that is. Just like Finnick. I think she's got a good chance to as well. She's like a shark in the water. So fast and strong and beautiful yet fearful. No one has ever beaten her in competitions, and every swimmer who's met her is jealous and scared of her. I'm scared of her as well at times, the girl can be crazy. We were at the mall once and she tackled another girl who tried to take the last pair of shoes Annie wanted. The girl ended up with a black eye and a blank spot on her head. Like I said, Annie can be crazy. "Like, teachers we do have a life outside of school!"

I giggle. So we do. We do have a life outside of school. And a big part of that contains studying. I'm not complaining but it sure would be nice to not have these many exams.

I put my arms around Annie's neck and she put an arm around my waist.

"It's only three exams left", I say. "Brighten up, it's lunch time now".

"Yeah, Finnicks favourite class of the day", Annie giggles.

"Lunch is not a class", I laugh.

"To Finnick it is", she says.

"Yeah well I think it's safe to say that he'd get higher grades than us if it was a real class", I say.

Annie laughs and nods. Finnick loves to eat. Food is like a religion to him, and he takes it serious as well. He once saw me trying to throw away half a burger and he yelled at me for fifteen minutes for it. He said that you don't throw away a gift from God. I've never laughed harder than I did back then.

We reach the lockers and when I open mind a note flies out.

Not again.

I put my stuff in the locker. I sigh and crouch down to pick up the note.

"Be happy while you can bitch xoxo".

The note is snatched from my hands. "Annie no!" I say and fly up trying to get the note back.

I snatch it back but Annie's already read it.

"Report it!" She says. "Report it now, now I tell you!"

"I can't I don't know who's giving me these notes", I hiss and put it into my locker with the some of the other notes I've been given this week. "And you can't tell anyone". I close my locker.

"How am I supposed to not tell?" Annie asks, arms crossed over her chest. "You're being harassed!"

"Yeah but I don't care, and besides, it's probably nothing serious anyways", I say. "They only want to scare me, that or they're just plain stupid, I don't know, but I'm not scared, I don't care about some stupid low lives, and neither should you".

"I don't know Kit", she says unsure. "It all seems fishy to me".

"Don't tell anyone", I say. "Annie, just don't, I can handle this".

"I don't know", she says. "It doesn't feel right".

"Come on Annie lighten up, no one's died or anything it's just a bunch of childish notes", I say.

I can tell that Annie doesn't believe me. She was with me one time when I got a note and she believed me when I said it was nothing. Now she doesn't. I still believe it. Some stupid long lasting and lame prank.

We walk towards the cafeteria and meet up the others.

Peeta kisses me and I smile against his lips. I never get tired to kiss my boy. I don't care if we're in school. Though yes, we're in school, so it's only a short kiss. Like an I'm-happy-to-see-you kiss.

We walk into the cafeteria and stop in the line. Finnick is very excited. Today they serve lasagna. He loves lasagna. Loves it! He's like Donkey in the Shrek movies, he also loves lasagna and let's face it, Finnick looks like a donkey and he behaves like one sometimes.

I look into my bag. Fuck. I forgot my wallet at home. Dammit.

"Damn!" I hiss, still going through my bag.

"What?" Peeta asked.

"I forgot my wallet", I say. "I had to drop Gabriel off at school and everything was so hectic, god I can't believe I forgot it".

"No worries, I got cash", Peeta says, taking my hand in his.

"Peeta no, you know I don't like it when you pay for me", I say.

"And you know I like paying for you, so get over it", he says.

"Peeta..." I say but he interrupts me.

"Nope not listening", he says.

"Ugh", I sigh and lean against him.

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Hey guys I hope you liked the chapter!

So who's sending Katniss the notes? What will happen next?

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-Josephine xx