I love you. ( Collins Key Fanfic )

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EMILYS POV

I walk into the bathroom close the door behind me. I fall on the floor crying very heavily, my back is against the door and all I'm thinking is, why am I here, why did I meet Collins, I don't deserve him as a friend, I lost my family because of me, I could've done something more, I could've helped. Then i decide I've had enough of myself. I get up, pull back the shower curtain and grab my razor. Holding the razor in my right hand I move my left arm from my side to in front of me. A tear falls on to my skin while I move the sharp silver blade slowly across my already scared wrist as the fresh red blood appears on the surface of my skin, I move on to another part of my skin and keep deeply cutting until all I can see is blood covering my arm, nothing else.
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COLLINS' POV

I want to surprise Emily at her house! Nothing to special just maybe watch a movie or play a game, don't really know just something fun if she's up to it!
I was gonna go straight to her house but I wanted to change. Although we're just friends, I just want to make myself look presentable.
I went home and changed out of my red and black shorts and white tee ( which didn't go at all ) to a black jeans but kept my white tee on. I crossed the street to Emily's house and knocked on the door, someone answered.
"Hi! Who are you?" A little boy asked.

"I'm Collins. Who are you..?"

"I'm Caleb! Oh, you want Emily, don't you? Caleb said while laughing.

"Yeah, is she here, Caleb?"

"Yes! "EMILY SOME BOY IS HERE FOR YOU!!" Caleb shouted.

.. No answer..

Caleb calls again. Still no answer.

"Just go up stairs Collins. She's there somewhere. Go down the hall and you'll see the stairs." He said

"Umm.. Okay thanks, Caleb. " I responded giving him a nod
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EMILYS POV

I heard someone coming up stairs. I stopped and threw the razor out, grabbed the toilet paper and began to wrap it around the cuts until no blood was visible. It kept appearing.

"Emily! it's Collins! Where are you?"

"Umm.. In the bathroom hold on!" I shout out
"Okay" Collins replies.
"Why is he here?!?" I thought to myself while in panic. 2 minutes pass I'm still trying to cover my cuts.
"Emily, you okay? You've been in there awhile."
"YES! Just wait!"
He starts knocking telling me to open the door like he knew something was wrong.
"Collins, it's just girl stuff. Hang on."
I say trying to cover up why I was really taking so long."

"Oh, I'm sorry. I'll.. Just wait." He responds while still on the other side of the door.

"I'm not wearing a long sleeve, I can't hide these." I think to myself. "Oh my god, why??" I whisper. I start crying again and know I can't hide anymore, i couldn't if I tried. I opened the door and there he was -

COLLINS' POV

Oh my gosh I'm embarrassed. I said to myself while running my fingers though my hair. I thought something was wrong but just that.

The door opens.
I jerk my head towards the door, she's holding out her arm.
"OH MY GOSH, EMILY!"
I say while moving closer but quickly to her.
"I'm sorry, Collins."
She has toilet paper rapped many times around her wrist. I gently hold her arm in my hand while looking down at the blood seeping through the paper.
A few moments pass and i look up at her. My eyes are blurring and i can feel myself about to cry but I know I can't. She's looks up at me and asks "what do I do?"
"Your going to be okay, do you have a first aid kit?" I reply
"Umm.. Yeah, the drawer under the sink I think. But you don't need to! Please this this is a bad time. You should go." she says grabbing onto her wrist while I let go.
"No! I'm going to help." I reply.
I find the kit and ask her to sit down.
She sits down on the edge of the bath tub. I'm gonna need to take the toilet paper off to properly take car of it, okay? I tell her
" Um.. O-okay but Collins-
It's alright. I say as I interrupted her.
I kneeled down and I slowly unwrap the toilet paper, occasionally looking up at her to make sure she was okay and that it wasn't hurting.
There was so much blood, It was shocking. My eyes became so blurry with tears, I used the back of my hand to wipe away the tears. A few seconds later I looked away, across the bathroom, I and shut my eyes tightly, I opened them again and tears fell onto the cold stone tiles. When Emily saw me she wanted me to stop and insisted that I wait outside but I said no, I wanted to help and kept with what I was doing.
Once I took off all the toilet paper and put it a side on to get floor, I took one of the peroxide sheets out of the first aid box sitting next to me, but I warned her that it was going to hurt, a lot. All I got was a nod in response.
I moved the sheet over her arm. As I swept the blood away it revealed how many cuts she had made.
"Why are you here?" I heard her mumble. " ahh Collins!" Emily shouts
"I'm sorry! I'll be more gentle. To answer your question, I wanted to see you" I said quietly in response.
"I'm not worth that, I'm not worth wanting to see" she said while sobbing into her right hand.
I stopped cleaning her wrist i looked up to her, she looked back at me. I stared at her for a few seconds and I said "Emily, don't you ever say that again. You are worth it. You deserve everything good. Nothing and nobody should make you feel other wise, understand?
I wait for her to respond.
"No, I don't. You're wrong. I don't deserve anything. I'm sorry Collins. I'm sorry for this. You shouldn't be helping me right now."
"We're going to talk after this."
Not expecting a response I go back to cleaning her wrist.
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AFTER
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I take her out of the bathroom and I look down at the end of the hall. "Is that your room?" I ask
"Yeah it is.." Emily replies
Okay I walk her to her room and sit her down on the bed.

EMILYS POV

He's standing up, pacing back and forth then finally stops turns to me and he speaks.
" Emily, I know we just met but I really like you. It's okay if you don't feel the same but hear me out. I didn't want to tell you this early but you say you don't deserve anything but it's come to this, I don't mind. When we went to the park and I saw your arm. I know it didn't seem like it from the questions I was asking but, immediately I KNEW I wanted and want to be there for you, I want to be the one to hold you and tell you everything is going to be fine, the one who will do anything to make you feel wanted and the one that is there for you trough everything. Emily, please if anything happens, please tell me?" Collins spoke with so much emotion.
He sat back down, be was next to me but close.
I turned to him
"Collins, thank you. I will try. I don't know if I do feel the same way though." I say but feeling terrible and almost confused.
"It's okay." I understand. We just met. " Collins says
I gave him a nod then looking back down at the floor.

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IM SORRY! This is so long! Heads up, I'm twelve so I'm sorry if certain moments are very descriptive. For example, KISSING?!? I've never done that! So I have no idea what to describe that?! 😂😂
Sorry again, keep reading please though!!! <333