[My Heart Told Me]
You anchored my eyes
with your lies,
For I believed them
in the cold DecemberBut the lie ditector in my
heart kept flaring
To my disbelieving mind
every secondWhile screaming the truth
in my deaf ears,
But I didn't listen to itFor I believed your lies
continually
That filled my eyes with blue
tears each sparkly nightAnd It haunted me in my own
skin
For I was emotionally deadFrom your lying
For it killed me each time
I heard itAnd it shattered my happiness
into gloominessFor I absorbed those words
with my sponge made heart
For I absorbed all my blue
tears and I couldn't contain
them allBecause my eye were getting
obese from my wet emotions,
And my ex lover's words soaked
into my mind like a songSo my Blue tears fell endlessly
and it washed my filthy thoughtsFor I was running; far within
your lying
That I became lost in the maze
that you created overtimeBut I found myself at the end
of my blue lake
But I found myself at the edge
of my blue tearsSo I took a dive into those
depressing blue waters at last
To cleanse my degraded soul
for it was filthy'Cause it was a dump-yard
that you placed my soul in
For I was compelled to stay
by your false promisesThen suicide became my
closest friend,
For it filled my ears with
hopes to stop hurtingAnd it tried to persuade
me to cut flesh,And let my red blood make
love to my wounded handsAnd let my skin palely fade
away;Fade away like all of the hopes
that I had that you could changeBut I would always hear you lie
repeatedly
But I would always hear my
lie detecing heart flaringFor it was telling me that I was
more than your words...And that I was a gifted, loveable
and talented boySo I finally sliced my shut ears
open,And I recognised your lies
for the first timeAnd I finally understood
my blue tearsSo I never hated you as
much as I did back then,For I was floating on my
blue lake,
With your lies drowning
below meFor I finally got out of the
maze,That you trapped me in for
years.
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PoesiaAuthor: Jevaunie Patterson Poetry Type: [Narrative Poetry] Book Status: [Ongoing] Book Editing: [Ongoing] Young lovers we were, we argued like enemies lost our way and ended the relationship. Then I faced heartbreak newly for the first time, as a...