Colours Fade Overtime

Chapter 9: Blue Tears

[My Heart Told Me]

You anchored my eyes
with your lies,
For I believed them
in the cold December

But the lie ditector in my
heart kept flaring
To my disbelieving mind
every second

While screaming the truth
in my deaf ears,
But I didn't listen to it

For I believed your lies
continually
That filled my eyes with blue
tears each sparkly night

And It haunted me in my own
skin
For I was emotionally dead

From your lying

For it killed me each time
I heard it

And it shattered my happiness
into gloominess

For I absorbed those words
with my sponge made heart
For I absorbed all my blue
tears and I couldn't contain
them all

Because my eye were getting
obese from my wet emotions,
And my ex lover's words soaked
into my mind like a song

So my Blue tears fell endlessly
and it washed my filthy thoughts

For I was running; far within
your lying
That I became lost in the maze
that you created overtime

But I found myself at the end
of my blue lake
But I found myself at the edge
of my blue tears

So I took a dive into those
depressing blue waters at last
To cleanse my degraded soul
for it was filthy

'Cause it was a dump-yard
that you placed my soul in
For I was compelled to stay
by your false promises

Then suicide became my
closest friend,
For it filled my ears with
hopes to stop hurting

And it tried to persuade
me to cut flesh,

And let my red blood make
love to my wounded hands

And let my skin palely fade
away;

Fade away like all of the hopes
that I had that you could change

But I would always hear you lie
repeatedly
But I would always hear my
lie detecing heart flaring

For it was telling me that I was
more than your words...

And that I was a gifted, loveable
and talented boy

So I finally sliced my shut ears
open,

And I recognised your lies
for the first time

And I finally understood
my blue tears

So I never hated you as
much as I did back then,

For I was floating on my
blue lake,
With your lies drowning
below me

For I finally got out of the
maze,

That you trapped me in for
years.