Killer Love (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter Six Sunrise

I woke up with a cold sweat around the crown of my head. I glanced over at my clock, which read 03:37. Great, it's only three thirty and the nightmares that haunt my dreams won't allow me to sleep. I went to bed at 9:30 and I think that's the longest I've slept all summer. I peeled my blankets off of my sweaty body and went into my bathroom. I pushed the curtain back and turned the water on. I peeled my pajamas off and felt the water before I hopped in the hot water. It felt good against my clammy skin and soon relaxed my tense muscles. I always took long showers so by the time I got out it was already 4:20. I pulled on a pair of high waisted jean shorts and a black crop top that has REBEL printed across it. I put on my white converse.

I smelled pancakes being made in the kitchen and knew it was Gregory. I seriously think our chef doesn't sleep at all. I walked through the swinging door to the kitchen and say at the bar attached the the island.

"Just on time. I made pancakes." Gregory placed a stack of three pancakes in front of me and a little bowl of syrup in the side. I smiled and started to eat.

"These were so good." I said as I finished up. I stood and put my plate in the sink and started to walk towards the back door.

"You know it's a Saturday, you don't have to work." Gregory said as I reached the door.

"Yeah, I know. I'm going for a ride probably going to ride to the cliffs and watch the sunrise." I said before walking out towards my personal stable that my dad had built by the garage. I open the stall and Morning Star greeted me with a huff.

"Mornin' Star." I said as I put food in her trough and started to clean up a little in her stall. Once she was finished eating I saddled her up and started riding towards the cliffs to watch the sunrise. I had about an hour until it started, but I can't help myself for wanting to watch it.

"Alright Star. Let's pick up the pace, Yah!" I kicked Star's side with a little force to get her to gallop as I steered us towards the cliffs. I watched as the scenery around us as it shifted from a forest to a grass field and slowed Morning Star to a steady trot.

"Alright girl, you know where to go." I said as Star started moving us towards the only tree that sat close to the cliff. I hopped down and tied Star to a branch that hung low. I walked to the edge of the cliff and sat down in the darkness of the soft grass. I pulled my knees to my chest and rested my chin on my knees.

"What am I going to do?" I whispered to myself. I had to face the fact that He was coming for me. I just didn't want anyone to get hurt like I let happen last time. It cost my strong relationship with my brother, Caleb's life, Dante's life, and my soul. I had lost myself completely and I have no clue what to do now.

"Mom, I hope you can hear me. I'm sorry that I have fucked up so much. I wish hadn't, but I did. I don't even know where Jace is anymore. He doesn't call. Dad has been here, but he's not Jace, he's not...you. I miss you so much. I wish I could have you here and I know you want that too, but life is life. Just know that I'm so soo sorry." My voice quivered as a single year rolled down my cheek. I sat in silence for a few minutes until I heard hooves coming up behind me. I didn't bother to turn around because I thought it was my father.

"What're you doing out here all alone?" A deep, raspy British accent came from behind me and made me jump. I stood up and whirled around.

"Watching the sunrise. How the hell did you find me? Let alone get one of my horses?" I asked startled that Harry Styles knew how to ride a horse. And find me.

"Your father told me you would be back here. And showed me the horse stables. I figured I'd see where you disappeared to." He said while rubbing the back of his neck.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because you looked a little shaken up yesterday and I wanted to see if you were alright." He said staring me right in the eye.

"Well I'm not fine, but there's nothing you can do. So thanks for the concern." I huffed and sat back down in the same position. I looked out over the Atlantic and saw tiny rays of gold breaking through the horizon.

"I'm sorry... Can I watch the sunrise with you?" He asked still standing behind me.

"Sure. No one has ever done it before." I said stating the truth.

"Why not?" He asked as he sat down closely beside me with his legs crossed.

"Because no one knows I come back here." I admitted, "No one, but Jace and Dad." I added quietly.

He stayed silent, but looked over at me as I stared out to sea. I don't know why, but I felt at peace for once in a while with him being here with me. I smiled and realized he was still staring at me.

"What?" I asked

"Nothing you just have a lovely smile." He said and he cheeks reddened a little.

"No one except my mother has told me that." I whispered not expecting him to hear.

"Your mum? I never got to meet her." He said and I felt the tears stinging behind my eyes.

"That's because she past away from cancer two years ago." Right before everything went to shit, I silently added.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring it up." He said noticing my watery eyes.

"It's fine, I'm just not used to talking about it." I truthfully admit. I jump a little when Harry's big hand started to run my back because there were tears rolling down my cheeks.

"It's okay." He said and leaned towards me so he could wipe the tears from my face. My body heated from the way his thumb softly ran across my cheek. I just cried in front of Harry Styles. I've never cried like this either. Silently, pathetically, why am I now? Scarlet don't do this to yourself, remember he's still a celebrity. He doesn't care. I promised Alfred I wouldn't do this I can't. I will not fall for Harry Styles.