The Forgotten Warrior

6 Remember

That night I got very little sleep. My nightmares were there even before my sleep. When I normally can't sleep I got punch a bag or something but I didn't want to wake the boys so I just laid there. It's going to be a long night.

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When the sun came out of hiding I jumped out of bed and got dressed. I put on some running shorts and a sports bra. I was going for a run to think. I grabbed my phone and ear buds and quietly walked out of the house. I put my ear buds in and started my music. i started running to Central Park. 

As Central Park came to view "If I die young" by The Band Perry came on. It's Ironic I did die young but no one buried my in satin. I bet Hydra just threw my body in a ditch and left. I love this song not just because I can relate to it because...because of the meaning. I can't explain it.

As I was running threw Central Park I notice several people looking at me. I then realized it was my scares they were all looking at. I didn't mind to much I've had them for a long time. You learn to live with it.

I stopped to get a drink oh water. When a little girl came up to me. 

"Why do you have so many scares?" She said.

I kneeled in front of her "Because I fought in the military."

He eyes went big. "But you a girl. Girls can't fight in the army!" 

"Who told you that?"

"My brother."

"Well you can tell your brother that you met someone who was in the army."

A huge smile came to her face "Do you think I can a soldier?"

"Katie!" A women who I assumed to be the girls mother came running up.

Katie walked over to her mother.

"Sorry." Said Katie's mother.

"It's fine." I looked at Katie "And yes you can. You can be whoever you want."

Katie smiled as her and her mother walked away.

I stood and continued my run. After about a hour I ended up back home when I walked in the door I was met with chaos. My kitchen was on fire. Steve and Sam were trying to put the fire out and Bucky was no where to be found. I quickly grabbed the fire extinguisher and put the fire out. 

I looked at Sam and Steve."I'm gone for a little but any you are already burning my house down!?" I yelled.

They both flinched. 

"Care to share what you two were doing?"

"Attempting to make breakfast." Said Sam.

"Okay you two are not aloud to use anything that involves fire anymore." I said walking out of the kitchen. "Oh and you two get to clean up the mess." I shouted over my shoulder.

I walked up the stairs to my room to take a shower. I went past the training room and saw Buck beating a punching bag. I walked into the room watching Bucky.

He was shirtless. I could see where his metal arm connected to his flesh. Around the metal the skin was a sickly red. I slowly walked up to him. He seemed to sense me coming and stopped punching the bag. He looked at me over his shoulder. His eyes were pained.

I walked to him and slowly set my hands on the metal arm where it connected to the fleet and ran my hands along it. I felt him stiffen under my touch. He quickly turned around grabbing my hand. 

"Don't." His voice was low and husky.

"Bucky-"

"I don't want to hurt you Shel..."

"You won't."

"You don't know that! I've be made into a weapon Shel! A weapon that can go off at any moment." He shouted.

I flinched.

"Shel I've killed people-"

"And I haven't!?"

"It's not like in the military-"

"That's not what I'm talking about."

"You think your the only victim of Hydra? Well your not."

"Wha-"

"Not long after Steve went under the war ended and Stark had to stay over there for a bit longer and so I stayed with him. One day I was walking to the lab to meet him when I was hijacked. These people threw a bag over my head and pulled me into a car. I tried to fight but they were to strong. Later the bag was pulled off my head and I was in a lab tied to some kind of chair. They put something on my head and then there was eletric pulses going threw my brain. After they were do I could barley remember anything. They made me kill people alot of people. That is were some of my training came from." I looked at Bucky with tears streaming down my cheeks "Later the brainwashing just quite i don't know how but it didn't work anymore on me so the shot me and killed me."

He gently wiped my tears away.

"Your not the only one James." 

"I never said I was."

I looked down. 

"Erin do you get..."

"Nightmares? Yes all the time."

He did the last thing I thought he would ever do. He pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him. I actually felt safe for the first time in a long time. 

"Now you just have to remember that you are not the only one." He whispered in my ear.