Yes. I never want that spark to go away or be distant with him but I came across a post of him on facetime with 2 girls with the caption "when your ex comments on your pictures" basically making fun of me and he let them do it. that was my breaking point. me being hurt and mad I texted him saying to never text me again. I didn't mean it at all I was mad and confused. how anyone gets when they're mad, they say things they don't mean. now I regret everything I said to him. I lost him or any chance we could've had, why do I always fuck things up? now I don't know what to do with myself or even the point to life. but I'm going to keep trying I'm not giving up I will never give up on him. he could hate me and say the meanest things nothing will ever make me not love him so there for I will always be there for him and I'll never give up on us.
he is my forever my world. almost going 24 hours without talking I was going crazy so tempted to just text him but he then unblocked me giving me a chance to apologize. of course I took the opportunity. knowing it wouldn't change the fact he didn't want me in his life. I'm not giving up. wishing for a call or text telling me he misses me or I'm on his mind as much as he's on mine. you may be able to erase someone from your mind but getting them out of your heart is a different story. I hope one day he realizes how much I did truly care about him and he's going to miss me being there putting up with all the hurtful comments and rough arguments. loosing someone so important to you almost feels as if you loose yourself too. just stop for a second look at your life and appreciate everyone in it be nice and just enjoy life because you never know when someone will just up and leave you. take every moment like your last.
there is no one like him I will never have the connection I have with him. I will never feel as safe an secure as I do with him. I will never love someone as much as I love him. I know I should probably let go because I know he is but the memory of what could of been keeps me up every night. I don't want him to be over me and move on. I don't want this to be the end.
