it's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad about it. it's okay to miss him it's okay to wish you did something differently but never blame yourself for how things turned out, never tell yourself you can't do better and never tell yourself it's the end of the road, fate has a time and place for all of us and nothing you can do or say will change that, sure it's okay to fall but it's never okay to stay down. It's hurts to let go, sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold onto something or someone the more it want to get away. you almost feel like some kind of criminal for having felt for having wanted, for wanting to be wanted. it confuses you because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back you're left so alone that you can't explain. there's nothing like that feeling. they tell you the easiest way to move on is to love someone else, so start loving yourself more.
I hate you for giving up on me and us, i hate you for letting me spill my see rest to you only for you to keep them after leaving me. I hate you for ruining what we had and for taking is away from me. I hate you for your replacing your warm arms with cold not mares. I have you for giving me love and then just yanking it away like I didn't deserve it. I have you most of all for making a fool of me for loving you despite what everyone said and all the red flags. I only hate things that you've done but I could never hate you as a person. The most heartbreaking part is watching them become a stranger right in front of your very own eyes. you knew the sound of their laugher inside out and now their laugh sounds unfamiliar. that someone you know so well is now someone you used to know and that hurts the worst.
"why did you guys break up"
this question comes up a lot. I faintly laugh almost painfully and I answer, one day he loved me and the next he didn't. strange isn't it? how fast someone's feelings can change and then there's nothing you can do but accept it. you have to sit and accept the fact that you're completely in love with someone who doesn't even want to talk to you. and doesn't care if you go or come and frankly they would rather it you didn't come at all and that sucks.
