the only way I can make him want me back is ignoring him making him check his phone for my text and missing me. I want to have the strength to do that but I don't .. it hasn't been over 24 hours were we haven't talked for the past 10 months I can't just break a habit that quick. I love him and any chance I get to talk to him may be my last so it doesn't make sense to me when everyone says to ignore him and make him want me. but only for the chance he may want me again I'm going to try. so if you're my friend and readying this text me and keep my mind off things don't ask me about him or anything just start a random conversation.
things are getting somewhat better.. but every little thing still reminds me of him from a picture I come across to the milk in my fridge. it kills me every time and all I want to do is sit in my room and cry. I don't see the point in getting out of bed or even eating at this point until I have him back. I just don't know how this all happened so quick, not even a week ago he was telling me how much I meant to him and how he couldn't wait to see me when he got back from vacation. but in one moment it was all taken from me. gone. like it never even happened, you may think it's easy getting over someone who says mean stuff and shows that they're clearing moving on. but it's not. when you fall in love with someone you don't just fall out love with them. so what do I do now? when I see him doing fine and posting and acting like nothing bothers him. that hurts more than ever. it sucks when you get in the habit of talking to someone everyday and night and then one night when they're not there everything's just so lonely and it's hard to sleep. you know something else that sucks when he posts something on Instagram saying all his friends are there for him when no one else is ... I AM A PERSON THAT IS HERE FOR YOU 100% and never left your side YOU LEFT ME. okay sorry I just ranted anyways I love him to death but my only wish in life is that things aren't like they are.
