okay so i haven't wrote in forever but i need to start again it really helps express my thoughts so whether any reads this or not it's just to help me
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one must go through hardship and struggle to achieve what they really want. if i'm ever going to get back with you later on or anything i have to go through these sad times of no communication and sleepless nights just like other successful people did before me to get what they want. You may have given up on us and me. But i won't give up on you. you were the greatest thing to ever happen to me. you were what i called home. you brought out the best version of my self. you were and are my happiness. And people say you have to move on to realize what you really want. but i already did all that before i met you. so i can wait for you. it'll be hard but i know i can pull through this not for just me but for us.
i know i shouldn't be in love with you but i am relentlessly and fatally in love with the thought of you, the thought of your voice, the thought of us. and i want you to be mine, i want you to feel the same, but i can sense you forgetting and that's why i shouldn't be feeling the way i do. i didn't choose you when our eyes meant there was no turning back. there's always gonna be a special place in my heart for that one person who was there for me at my lowest. i can't help it
