I wake up in a dark room. All by myself I stand up and look around I look down at my stomach and I look ready for labor then all of a sudden a light turns on over a table that has my grandma sitting in it
Grandma: oh lord child what did you do your gonna kill yourself you know you can't handle a child you can't even handle yourself look at yourself living in a condo with 3 rooms and 3 bathrooms come on your supposed to be living in a mansion to take care of me buy me a Bentley how you gonna take care of me if you have a baby
Before I could even respond the light turns off and it shines over another table and its my dad
Dad: hey baby girl I'm sorry about your sister but she didn't understand what she needed to do I had a goal set for her she was supposed to become a lawyer make more money than me get a mansion and take care of the whole family she didn't achieve her goal she messed around and got pregnant during college I told her she would have consequences and she did but she ended up dying well not my fault but you didn't complete the goal I had for you you were supposed to stay in Atlanta and become a neurosurgeon and buy a mansion to take care of the family but your in California and your a pediatrician that lives Ina condo and let's not forget you do hair what the fuck Moe you have consequences to maybe worse than your sisters
I felt tears forming in my eyes my family always criticizes me that's why I moved away from them far far away from them nobody gives a damn about me
A lit shines on the opposite side of the room i want to turn around but I don't I want to know who it is first
Grandad: wow your a disspointment moriah Skye Campbell your going to hell granddaughter you had sex before marriage do you know what's baby does to you your going to be up all night dealing with the baby and your only in your twenty's why would you mess around with these boys and get yourself pregnant for has been watching by you and seeing how ugh of a slut you have become through the years i tried to tell your father that you were going to be a prostatute but he said no she has a big goal and she is going to achieve it. I can't believe he had faith in you out of all people I mean your sister was worse thank god she's gone but you you had this baby coming how would your mother feel about this
That last lime hit me so hard like a boulder crashing into me my mom and dad had me and my sister at a young age how would she feel about me having a baby right now she wouldnt and now I'm making my mom angry I have to get rid of it
The light turns off and a light beside it turns on
Uncle: wow Moe I thought you would be the one to help your family out the hole that we have dug yourself into by children but your just made it deeper I love you Moe but you really fucked up this time if you put the boys aside and handled your business you would be good
His light turned off and the next one I wouldn't of expected it was Bryson
Bryson: man Moe what the fuck you did this shit on purpose didn't you why do you all of a sudden have a baby your a hoe for that you really do just want my money everymonth and I bet none of it is going to the baby your gonna go shopping to keep your style up damn shame you know I don't want this baby with you maybe with somebody else but not you I can't believe you got me caught up in your shit again
I bust into tears after he talked then the light turned off and it was my mom sitting in the chair looking pissed off that made me bust into even more tears
Me: mommy I'm sorry
I tried to talk but she couldn't hear me just like when I was little
Mom: damn Moe why you followed my footsteps you could've made it damnait I have to sir up there and watch my only living daughter fails in life nobody wants to see that your just like me is was in school to be a nurse for sick patients I was going good had my own place and everything buy your father he played basketball we had sex I ended pregnant with your sister after I had her I said no more sex I didn't for 2 years then your father came back again and then there was you I thought you would be different but its not you to blame its your father since he fucked up teaching you
I couldn't take this anymore
The last light flashed directly in front of me and I was face to face with
Jewel: Moe why did you follow my path look where It go me I'm dead Moe you should've listened to dad and you could be fine but you tried to follow your older sister which obviously was a fail. I don't understand you were doing so good but now your a fuck up just like the rest of the family you gave us hope that we could make it and be famous and everybody know our name but now we just go down in history as the another black family that tried. Damnit Moe do better kill it it only makes your life worse trust me I know. I nod my head yes as she goes away and the light turns out now I'm in a dark room with nobody but myself I'm alone and I hate being alone.
