Run (Disasters in Love: Book 1) (Part 1 COMPLETE)

Chapter 18

Kat
February 19, 2005

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Next day

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Vanessa is staring at me.

I don't even have to look at her to know. I can feel her eyes boring into the back of my head.

"Need something?" I spin around to face her, giving up on perfecting my eyeshadow. I hate dealing with it anyway.

"No..." She looks everywhere but in my eyes. Uh oh... what is she hiding?

"Come on, Vanessa, tell me what's going on?" I turn to add some blush to highlight my natural features.

I hate when girls wear a ton of makeup, it looks awful.

Makes you wonder what they are hiding under that mask.

"Nothing's wrong. I just..." I look over, prompting her to continue.

"Just what?" I'm trying to tamp down my annoyance, but it's difficult after the conversation I had with Ben last night.

Everything is strong me off today. Even the sweet text he sent me last night apologizing agitated me.

I don't have the patience for Vanessa's evasiveness. I'm trying really hard to not lose my cool.

She sighs. "You realize this is the first time we've went out that you haven't asked if he would be there?"

"Well, maybe I'm just over it." Or maybe I'm just sick of your pity and concern.

"Over it? You've been pissed this whole time, what changed?" She eyes me suspiciously.

"I don't know... Maybe I just realized it was pointless to be angry." She crosses her arms defensively and I can tell she's about to defend me to myself.

"Now before you go all Mama Bear, just remember I was the one who crawled into his bed. What did I expect to happen?" She opens her mouth to respond, but I continue.

"That he would suddenly want to date me or bring me flowers or hold my hand? Please. That's not Ben. We all know it. I should have known better." I mean it all, but it still hurts my heart to think about.

In a few minutes, Vanessa will think Ben has changed, but I will know the truth.

Hopefully this works.

Honk.
Honk.

Vanessa looks out the window for Nate's car. "Time to go! Oh, and I hope you meant what you said earlier, because Ben is going to be there tonight."

"Oh..." I try to sound disappointed, but really I'm just excited to get this fake relationship started.

"Sorry, Katie-bug. You don't have to sit by him, though." She gives me a quick side hug before we head downstairs.

As we enter the lobby, I see Ben is standing next to Nate, looking so good in his dark jeans and leather jacket.

At the sight if him, all the anger I felt after our horrible conversation last night vanishes. I just want him to hold me.

"Uh... What the fuck are you fucking doing in our fucking dorm, playboy?" She steps in front of me, like he might attack me at any minute. I try not to laugh.

"I picked him up on the way. I didn't think it would be a big deal. We are all going to the same place, Babe." Nate looks nervous and he should be, Vanessa's glare is boring into his skull.