I Dont Know

Chapter 40

The big 40!! Mwuhaha!

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"Why are you here Niall?" Brenna asks me as I stand at her door.

"Jo thinks you want me me, and you don't so you've got to tell her that. Please, she isn't listening to me." I beg. She half smiles and lets me in so we can talk more.

"So what did you do?" I tell her about how Jo wasn't at school and how I saw her at the bakery then spoke to her. I mentioned every little detail because I can't mess up anything now.

"Why does she think you want me?" This time I ask the question.

She shrugs but I can tell she is lying. "I like you, but I know it can't be. Every time I see you I want you but I can't. You can't keep coming over for anything anymore. I'm trying to fix my relationship with Harry and I don't need you to ruin it." Me to ruin it? You better be fucking kidding Brenna.

"Harry is my brother, you remember that don't you?" I ask, I'm going to have to see her again but I wasn't expecting her to say she wants me.

"Yes, are you fucking stupid? I love Harry but you I don't love. I care for you a bunch but I can't turn that into love or my life with Harry is over."

"I'm fine that you love that bastard but Jo, I need her to come back. I can't think straight without her."

She lightly laughs. "Obviously or you wouldn't be here. I can try to talk to her but she's been avoiding me."

I smile and give Brenna a hug. "Thank you! Thank you." I release and she smiles.

"No problem. I mean that's what friends do right?"

Jo's POV:

I got back from the bakery early mainly because of Niall. Why did he even come? I just want to lay in this bed for the rest of my life.

"Sweetie, someone's here who wants to see you." Keri says and I see Brenna walk in behind her.

"Leave, leave, leave!" I shout. I'm not speaking to the girl that ripped my heart out.

"Jo..."

"Leave!" I shout again.

"Jo!"

"No!"

"God damnit! You are going to listen to what I have to say then you can yell at me or do whatever the hell you want but you are going to let me speak damnit." She says and sits on the bed near me and I don't budge. "Niall is in love with you and I'm in love with Harry. Now I do have feelings for Niall but I'm not letting those feelings turn into love. I've been avoiding him the minute it happened and you've been avoiding him. Hate me but I do want him but I know I can't, because he's yours. He can't even think straight and he's getting me and Harry worried. We've both said were damn sorry so why can't you let it go?"

"Because.." I choke. "He was my first love and you took him away because you wanted him. I can't do it."

"Your more angry with me than him and I'm fine with that, I am, but you can't do that to Niall."

"Leave."

"Did you hear..."

"Leave. Please just leave." And she leaves. I hear a different story every time and I don't know which one to believe.