Ella
Not much has happened in the last couple days, we filmed one last video, and today Chad, Max, Warrun, and Ian's last day here.
Joji was still asleep on the bed, I woke up early. I grabbed my phone before going out of the room, Max texted me,"When are you going to tell him ?"
"Today, I have to go to chemo again soon so he has to know why I'm going to be leaving alot." I said
"When do you have to go ?" He asked
"Its now Sundays, and Wednesdays." I said
"I'll talk to him, and then you can tell him. Just slowly mention it, and we'll both comfort him." He said
"When he wakes up, ill tell him. Before you guys go to your flight." I said
"Our flight is at 12 so he needs to get up soon." He said
"I'll wake him up right now." I said
"Ok, I'll be out here waiting." He said
"What about everyone else ?" I asked
"Can I tell them ?" He asked
"I guess you can, but where are we going to be at ?" I asked
"You can tell him while you both are in the room, and when he comes out here we'll help him." He said
"Ok, I'm nervous. I'm waking him up right now. You'll see us in a couple minutes." I said
"You're going to be fine." He said
I put my phone on my lap, I leaned back against the wall and woke him up.
"Joji, wake up." I said poking him
He groaned.
"Joji, get up I need to tell you something important." I said
I feel so shitty, I want to cry. "Joji, get up."
He opened his eyes, he looked at me and could tell I wasn't joking.
"What's wrong ?" He asked
"I need you to actually listen to me." I said
He sat up, and looked terrible,"Did you do something bad ?"
I grabbed his hand,"Joji," I started crying,"I have to start going to the hospital every week, two times a week, for maybe the rest of my life." I was beating around the bush.
"What ? Why ?" He looked scared
"I dont know how to say this in a nice way that won't hurt you, but there is absolutely no way possible." I wiped my face from the tears,"I have cancer."
"What." He looked shocked, he was crying,"Are going to die ?"
"I, uh, I dont know joji." I said
He wrapped his arms around me, he didn't let go, he didn't want to. The thought of losing me obviously hurt him.
"How long did you know ?" He asked
"A couple days, I didn't want to tell you when our friends were here, the you'd be sad and they'd be happy." I said
"You should've told me sooner Ella." He said
"I know, I wanted to, but I couldn't get the guts to tell you." I said
"Have you gone to chemo ?" He asked
"I went once, and I have to go today after we take them to the airport." I said
