"Ella, wake up you're having a nightmare." Joji said shaking my sides
I sat up immediately, tears ran down my face,"Where's Karim?"
"He's in the other room, he's ok." Joji said holding my hand
"I had a dream about him," I said,"He died in the dream."
"That's terrible, why did you dream about that ?" He asked
"I dont know, when I fell asleep I guess I just panicked about him, and thought he was gone. My dream felt too real." I said
"It wasn't real, everything is fine." He said
"Can we go see him ?" I asked
"We can." He said,"I already went to see him while you were sleeping last night."
"I was really scared." I said getting off of the bed
"I could tell." He said grabbing my hand
We walked down the hallway to the elevator,"I feel so terrible, I dont know why I would dream of that. It hurts me so bad." I said
"Its ok, its over now. Karim is safe, he's healthy and happy." He said wrapping his arms around me
I speed walked to the nursery, we both looked through the window. Joji pointed to Karim,"There he is."
"Look how handsome he is." I said
"Just like me." Joji laughed
I laughed,"Just like you."
**
Two days in the hospital to recover after getting ripped apart by Karim. He got to stay with us for the first time last night, he just slept, and Joji held him alot. Luna has been nice and calm, she just slept and ate most of the time.
Heading home today, we didn't bring Karim a car seat, we didn't think I'd go into labor. I'll just hold him in my arms while we drive and hope for the best.
I changed into my shirt, I was given sweatpants by the hospital so I put those on. I still feel like shit, not only because of the dream, but my insides hurt, especially my head.
"Ready to go ?" I asked sitting at the edge of the bed.
"Yeah." He said
I carried Karim, he was wrapped in his blue blanket and a blue beanie, and Joji carried Luna in her car seat.
"I'm so glad to go home and relax." I said
"You know today is Sunday right ?" He asked
"Yeah why ?" I asked
"You're supposed to go back to the hospital today." He said
"Oh shit." I frowned
"Can you call and tell them you just had your baby and you cant show up ?" He asked
"I could, but they'll say that I need to come in for chemo and shit." I said
"This just sucks, Karim needs you, and you need chemo." He said
"I know." I said
We went into the elevator,"I'm going to miss you so much."
"I won't always be gone." I said
"Yeah but ill be by myself with the babies and you'll be in the hospital so it'll feel like it." He said
"I feel like shit that I have to leave and be gone." I said
We started walking to the receptionist desk,"Hello." I said
"Hi, are you checking out?"the lady asked
