I woke up before joji, I started getting ready for my treatment. I put on jeans, and a loose shirt so my stomach wasn't being pushed on. Joji was really passed out, I dont expect him to be waking up any minute soon.
I moved the hair from out of his face, and kissed his forehead. I went to the the bathroom, I did my makeup, and put my hair up into space buns. I'm in a better mood than last night, I wanted to look good today. I dont know why.
I checked on Luna, she was still sleeping. I didn't want to wake her. I grabbed the car keys, and my phone. I left the house, and got into the car. I felt Karim kick again when I started the car.
I'm excited to tell people what me and joji named our first son. I hope he hasn't told anyone, I wanted to keep it a secret until he was born. This time when I have Karim I dont want to tell anyone until afterwards. I'm still going to take pictures before I have him, and I can still move around.
At the hospital entrance, I started to feel sick about death. I know I'm going to die one day, but my day might be coming sooner than I want it to. What is going to happen to joji, Luna, and Karim if I die ? How will Joji support them and himself ?
I went up to my normal room after signing in. I started texting Kimmi,"Helllooooo."
She replied almost right away,"Heyyy ! :3"
"Its been a while since we last talked." I said
"I know, I would've texted you but I've been busy with work :(" she said
"Its ok lol" I said
"So how have you and the family been ?" She asked
"Good, Luna's first birthday was yesterday, I'm at chemo, and joji is stressed as always." I said
"I saw the pictures joji posted, she's so adorable. How is chemo going ?" She asked
"Its been fine, I lost a lot of hair, but I bought a wig to hide it." I said
"You're still so beautiful." She said
"Thank you, but I don't feel like it anymore." I said
"Why !?" She asked
"I dont know, after chemo I always feel dead and lifeless." I said
"You'll be better soon, then you wont have to deal with this anymore." She said
"Will you come visit me before I die ?" I asked
"You're not going to die, no one will let you die." She said
"But still, can you visit me before I turn to shit ?" I asked.
"When I can get vacation from work ill take a plane to see you." She said
"Thank you, I miss you and Kat so much." I said
"I miss you both too." She said
I sat on my hospital bed,"Baby #2 is almost here."
"What did you name him ?" She asked
"I want to keep this a secret until he is born, but you're his aunt so ill tell you. His name is going to be Karim." I said
"Awww that is such a cute name." She said
A nurse came into the room,"I got to go, a nurse is here for me I'm guessing."
"Ok love you." She said
"Love you too lol" I said
"Hello, Mrs. Miller." The nurse said
"Hello." I said
"Today will be more than just your chemo shot. I'm going to take you to get a cat scan to see how the tumor has changed." She said
