Falling In Place

Falling In Place 13 - Moment Of Weakness

A/N I'm back and I'm on holiday!!!! So maybe my chapters will be longer just maybe... Anyways scrap that updating schedule because the school work is piling up so I've been missing it... But I promise not to keep you hanging for too long... Thanks for reading it, voting and commenting... I really appreciate it....  THANK YOU!!!!! :*

 "Have you ever loved somebody so bad it makes you cry. Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at nights? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right? Have you ever? Have you ever?"

Damn it... Why did I set my alarm again? Why didn't I just go to school anytime I felt like a normal person... Ugggh.

I got up and turned off my alarm... I hate this song now... then did my morning routine then placed on my outfit for school.

It was a black high waist shorts and a pink mesh sleeveless top which tied in the front and a black high-top. Then I was off to school.

"Kaylor Jones don't you know how to use a phone?!?!?!" I bellowed at her as I saw her in the homeroom.

For once she arrived before me...

"What's with the shouting?" She asked looking up at me while massaging the side of her head.

"I called you twice last night and you didn't answer" I informed her "TWICE" I said again

"Sorry Jess" She said " Mom took away my phone after she claimed to say she smelt alcohol on my breath" She added rolling her eyes.

"Were you drinking?" I asked taking a seat beside her.

"That's beside the point" She said causing me to roll my eyes "How is taking away my phone gonna stop me from drinking?" She asked throwing up her hand in frustration

"Anyways what was so important yo called twice?" She asked shaking her head.

"If you wanted to know you wouldn't be drinking" I snapped at her.

"Oh come on" She whined "You can't not tell me" She said

"You just used double negative you know" I said to her 

"Know is not the time teacher" She said "Spill" She added

After shooting her a pointed glare I told her everything that had happen since Friday, when we last saw each other.

"OH MY GOD!!!" She exclaimed as soon as I finished "You and the bad boy family?" She asked well shocked

"Sadly yes" I said sighing

"Sadly? What do you mean sadly?" She asked  "You now have a big brother" She said

"A big brother that I dislike" I said

"Ohhh" She said

"Never thought of that did you?" I said just as the bell rang.

"We will finish this convo later" She said before turning around in her seat to listen to the announcements

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History time... Not cool... I slowly made my way  to class and took my seat at the back near the window. Not long after Taylor came in and took his seat right beside mine... 

Seriously... couldn't he take another seat I thought as I drew in the back of my notebook.

"What were you doing in my room Friday?" He asked me

"I was in your room Friday?" I asked looking genuinely confused.

I was right again... He didn't believe I was actually drunk.

"Don't play stupid with me Jessica" He growled

Pssh... Did he really think he could frighten me.

"I was drunk then" I said "I must have been wandering around" I said shrugging my shoulder as I concentrating on my drawing.

"Sure that explains how you drove home" He said 

"Kay drove me" I said plainly

"And she was drunker than you?" He asked

"I don't know but all I know is that I arrived home safely" I said getting tired of his questions.

He looked at me suspiciously before turning away...

I guess he believed me or maybe he was smart enough to know he wasn't gonna get anything out of me... Hahaha, no it gotta be the former.

The teacher came in... uh no sorry a substitute teacher so you know what that mean... FREE SESSIONS!!! 

I continued on my picture and when I was done realized I had subconsciously drew a picture of Shane, Tyler, Taylor and I together looking all happy and all.

 I quickly closed my book so that Taylor wouldn't see what I drew. 

I have to admit, after finding all that out, I have spent hours thinking about it and wondering what it would be like if I had known while Shane was alive.

I wonder if mom ever felt like leaving dad to be with Taylor's dad.... After all he isn't married. 

That is all I've been doing these past few days wondering 'what if?' 

And honestly, I need to stop 'cause it is a utter waste of time. 

I will never have a happy family unless Shane came back and I knew it.

Shane was one of the main reason for my happiness and when he died he took a big chunk of it with him.

Unless he came back I will never be fully happy.

"Are you okay?" Taylor asked breaking me from my chain of thoughts

That was when I realized that I was crying... Not bawling but tears were running down my face.

I wiped them away then took up my bag and stalked out of the class ignoring the protest of the substitute teacher...

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"Pull yourself together bitch" I whispered yelled to myself as I stood in front of the bathroom mirror.

"How could you start crying in a room full of people" I added

"Damn you really need to get issues sorted out" I said to myself as I splashed water onto my face.

This was about five minutes after I came into the bathroom and cried.

I also locked the door from inside so nobody could come in.

It wasn't gonna be hard to hide the fact that I was crying.

A dab of make-up and I'm all good.

Although my eyes will be red that's all I could do.

I still had 1 session left in class but I wasn't planning and going back there.

Maybe I would just walk around the school and clear my head... Yeah that sounds like a good idea.

I made my way out of the bathroom and down the hall. 

As I turned the corner, I bounced into a hard chest.

"Damn" I exclaimed as a pair of strong arms snaked around my waist preventing me from falling.