Eyelids Alex Babinski FF

Chapter Seventeen

I was released from hospital a couple of weeks ago, the doctors gave me a few medication for my stomach as I had got something pushed into my stomach when the accident happened.

I was thinking back to the time when Caden had got her operation for her eyes, it turns out she never got them done. She had left Alex the night before the operation was supposed to happen, I hadn't wrote a song with Alex at all. Nothing happened because I was a vegetable in the hospital bed for six months.

Today, I asked Brian to take my somewhere which was really important to me. Somewhere, where I hadn't been yet.

As we pulled to a stop I grabbed the black and red roses that were laying across my lap and got out the car. The small walk wasn't much for me, it wasn't a nice day, but it wasn't a horrible one either-it was just dull.

I slowly stopped as I stood in front of the grey concrete set just under the blossom tree. I read those three bold words that tore my heart apart.

ALEXANDER LUKE BABINSKI

My eyes scanned the headstone, his picture placed on the right along with the words of 'a grandson, a son, a brother and a best friend' I slowly sunk to my knees as I placed the bouquet of roses on his grave. Brian was waiting back at the car, he knew that I needed the alone time.

"Hey Al, six months huh? That's a long time." I let out a quiet sigh as anger began to boil. "I can't believe you left me here alone! You couldn't have held on!" I yelled at the stone.

"I hate you so much! I hate you for leaving me! I hate you for leaving us all here!" Tears were spilling down my cheeks as cries were leaving my throat.

"I hate that you left when I didn't get to say goodbye,"

I had dropped my head into my hands.

"Back in the car, I never got to tell you what I wanted to say." I cleared my throat as best as I could. "I just wanted you to know that I appreciate you being in my life, being my brother and my rock through everything. I love you, and I'm so grateful that you are apart of my life."

I closed my eyes as I spoke the words "were apart of my life."

I wiped under my eyes as I looked up to the picture of him smiling. "I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most. Must have been scary letting go without all your friends being there." I swallowed hard.

"I hate that I love you, you know? But I want you to know that I forgive you for leaving.." I sniffled as I looked at the blossom tree above me, placing my hand onto his gravestone

"I hope that you're happier wherever you are now. I just hope, I can make you proud. It was just you, and I..."

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A/N
I bet you all thought it was going to be a happy ending, it has a twist and I'm sorry if you can't figure it out. I'm not dropping any hints of it. It is currently 4:40 AM and I am so not bawling my eyes out for what I had done to Alex, it's like another Poussey moment 😭

I will be continuing on with Breaking the Habit or I'll be starting a new book (not sure yet) but I just have to say NOTHING went on between Alex and Lynn, all that time they were in a coma. ;)

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