Eyelids Alex Babinski FF

Chapter Eleven

I took a break from the hospital, leaving Alex with his mom for the day. Angel, Amanda, Jason, Jade, Caden and myself were going to the mall, but as always Jade and Amanda cancelled at last minute leaving Angel, Jason, Caden and myself to shop.

We decided to go into Super Dry to look around since Angel liked getting jackets from here. I stood outside the store with Jason while the two girls looked around, our butts were parked on the stairs just across from the store.

"How's Alex doing?" I heard Jason ask as I turned my head to look straight ahead.

"He hasn't improved, he's basically a vegetable Jason. I don't know what else to do, I want him to wake up, but I don't want him to be in pain. You know?" I sighed as I saw him nodding out of the corner of my eye.

"Are you two ready?" Angel stood with two bags, smiling at me while Caden stood behind her.

"Ready as ever! I'm starved." Jason got up from the steps and held his hand out towards me. I gladly accepted and pulled myself up with the help of one of my best friends.

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We didn't get home until six pm, in fact I didn't go home. I went straight to the hospital after dropping my shopping off at home and grabbing my guitar, Alex's mom had texted me saying that there was some news about him.

I didn't hesitate when I took the stairs again, not bothered if I saw that lady or not. After checking the floors, I began sprinting down the empty halls towards Alex's ward.

When I got there, Jill was sitting in the waiting room with three other doctors. I slowed down as I got to them, "What's going on?" I asked, looking between the four of them.

Jill had tears falling down her cheeks as I looked from her to one of the doctors. "Well?" I pushed.

"I'm sorry to inform you," he's not dead, he's not dead, he's not dead. Please don't say he's dead. "Alex isn't improving, and it's been at least a month now. We've come to terms that now might be the time to turn off his life support.."

"No!" I yelled, cutting him off from saying anything else. "Give him more time! He just needs more time! Just give me more time with him." I faintly whispered as I dropped onto one of the chairs, my chest felt tight and my heart hurt. The only time I felt like this was when the class pet died in kindergarten.

I looked at each of the doctors' getting the same look from all three of them, sympathy.

"I'll give him until the end of next week." The one who had been talking the entire time gave me a week and a half. I needed to get Alex out of this coma, if I didn't I would lose the one person who means the most to me.

I quickly got up and rushed to Alex's room once the doctors had left us. "I finished our song, you know the one that you was going to write for Caden? I guess the tables turned a bit." I sat down on the chair as I positioned the guitar comfortably on my lap.

I started strumming the rhythm, my eyes were closed as I counted myself in. "You see, I want the world to believe. That there's a light inside of me, but it's time I come clean."

I opened my eyes to look at him. "I'm not what I seem, no. Someone would say I'm possessed, yeah, but I'll confess I've just been obsessed with life and death and emptiness, I guess." I kept strumming as tears started to fall.

"Can't you see all of the change in me?" I played the tune softly as I carried on singing to him.

"What do you want from me? What do you want from me?" Tears were flowing and my nose was becoming stuffy. "I'm empty, I'm empty."

I put my guitar to the side as I stood up, there was little space on the bed, but I could fit. I climbed on next to Alex, my head resting on his shoulder as I played with the rings on my fingers.

"I need you to wake up, Alex. I can't lose you for good. I can't lose another friend." I held my sobs in as I gently gripped his hospital gown.

"I need you to get better not just for me, but for Brian, Caden, your mom and for our fans." I closed my eyes as I felt another wave of tears hit me.

Before I knew it, I was out cold.

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POV

"What do you want from me? What do you want from me? I'm empty, I'm empty." Lynn's voice cracked a little, she was crying. I could see it on her face, little did they all know that I was sitting on the chair across from them the whole time.

I had been sitting here for a month and a half watching each and every individual walk in and out of my room. From sunrise to sunset, from Lynn staying a couple of hours to over night. She hardly left my side, I couldn't leave this room. It was as if everything else was off limits, I cried when Lynn told me about my Grandma. I cried when she told me about the funeral, I cried when she sang me that song.

I felt useless as I sat back watching the people around me slowly give up, but not Lynn. I hadn't seen Caden much, maybe she was too busy with Brian. At the start I was angry, I was fuming and that's what landed me in here.

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C: Want to come over? Alex isn't home tonight, and I need to tell you something. It's important.

B: I'm sorry babe, maybe tomorrow night? It's the guy's night.

C: Aw baby! :( okay, well have fun and I love you!

B: I love you too, ttyl.

I was pissed, she was fucking Brian behind my back. My best fucking friend was fucking my girlfriend behind my back. What the fuck.

I placed Caden's phone back on the marble counter and grabbed a bag of Cheetos.

"Baby, I'm going out for a bit. I'll see you when I get home." I nodded as I watched Caden pick her phone up, just as she was about to leave she turned on her heels and made her way back to me. Her lips on my head almost made my anger disappear, almost.

"Don't do anything I wouldn't do." I gripped the bag tightly as I heard her leave. My world felt crushed, I was crushed.

It had been a couple of hours before I got a text from Caden, she said that she wanted me to meet her at Lynn's asap.

After checking I had everything, I got in my car and began driving to Lynn's house. A list of things running through my head of what I could have done wrong to make her cheat on me. Did I not love her enough? Did I not give her enough sex?

I ran my left hand down my face, a pair of headlights came out of nowhere and I felt my whole body jolt forward before I was thrown out of my own car.

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Here I am now, fucking screwed. I wasn't angry anymore, if Brian genuinely made Caden happy then that's all I care about. It hurts, but it's her happiness that I'm more interested in.

I looked down at Lynn, her head resting on my shoulder as her breathing evened out. I gently stroked her head, making her shift a little. I looked up towards the door and saw my mom standing there, her right hand covering her mouth as she tried to stop the tears that were going to fall.

She always opted for Lynn and I to get together, but she didn't know that Lynn was a lesbian. My mom was like a mom to Lynn too since her mom was never home, my mom loved Lynn like her own even if she had three sons already.

I watched as she closed the door over quietly not wanting to disturb Lynn from her slumber. I knew my shoulder wasn't the comfiest, but I knew it was much more comfortable for Lynn than that couch she had spent on.

I chuckled as I thought about the first time she slept on that, falling off the edge was definitely a skill of hers. I laid my head against the wall and closed my eyes ready for whatever was going to come my way.