Broken- A Hunger Games Fanfic

Chapter 18: SO CLOSE YET SO FAR! UGH!

I waited for Serena to kill me. She said as long as she could make my death long and painful then she would kill me- I thought it was better than making myself starve. "Ok. So I'm thinking I start with..." Serena tapped her chin with her free hand. "I'll start with.... Cutting deep into your arms" she smirked evilly. 'WAAY ahead of ya on the cutting part...' I thought. "M'kay" I shrugged. She threw me to the ground. 'SHEESH SHE'S A STRONG 17 YEAR OLD!' I screamed in my head. I looked up at her with my medium grey eyes. She crouched over me, making eye contact briefly. A few seconds later, she started rolling up my right sleeve. The arm I HADN'T cut yet. I drew in a shaky breath, awaiting the pain. She started to shove her knife deep into my right arm. I let out a low groan of pain, but I didn't say anything or try to resist. I just let it happen. With her knife still as deep as it could go, Serena dragged the knife down my arm, which ripped pain through my whole arm and up to my shoulder. I grunted in pain, which made Serena-- who's arm was now covered in my blood-- laugh. She finished that arm and pulled the knife out, which made an extremely sickening noise that I can't describe. I was actually probably just gonna die of blood loss, she did shove that knife in deep. She rolled up my left sleeve and looked shocked. "Oh... Do you... Cut?" She asked genuinely. "Yeah... I do..." I admitted. "Oh, ok, well... Um... Yeah.... Ok" she said, sounding utterly surprised and maybe grossed out. She started cutting my upper arm, that had no cuts on it (right under my shoulder). She had it in kinda deep already and she was dragging it across first, when she stopped. I looked up at her, confused. Her eyes went wide in terror and her face, absolutely petrified. She fell on top of me. "What the?" I groaned, pushing her off of me. She had gotten a knife in her back. "Ooh..." I scrunched my nose up. I was still on the ground and my arms hurt like nobody knew. I could hardly move my right arm since she did it deep and my full arm. I lifted my head a little and saw Gale running towards me. "GALE! NO! RUN AWAY! LEAVE ME HERE!" I screamed. "NO! Come on!" He yelled, dragging me up. "Gale, I'm going to die of blood loss. Look" I showed him my right arm and left arm. He looked sick to his stomach. "It's ok. It looks worse than it is" Gale said. "No... I experienced and saw it. It went all the way Gale" I responded. He was about to say something when I saw a bullet enter his side. "Oh no!" I yelled, looking over to where the bullet came from as Gale fell to the ground. It was Alexis. "I- I thought he was gonna kill you" she said. She looked scared. "Don't lie" I said. "Ok, I need to win this. Bye" she said, running off in the other direction. She wouldn't kill me. It was annoying. I wanted to die. So badly. I ran over to Gale and kneeled next to him. The wound was bad- really bad. I couldn't do anything but sit next to him. "Gale... I'm sorry... This is my fault" I choked out. "How?" He asked weakly. "If I hadn't beat up Gunner... Neither of us would be here. You wouldn't have attacked the Mayor..." I sobbed. "Oh... Ya..." He whispered. I bit my lip. "I'm sorry, Gale you shouldn't have saved me back there... You shouldn't have saved me when I took the pills" I sighed. "Katniss, trust me. It's ok. I would rather myself die than you die. I love you Catnip" he smiled extremely weakly, taking my left hand, kissing my scars that I had inflicted upon myself. "I'll miss you" I cried although I was going to make sure I died too- I was caught up in the moment, so I just said it. "I'll miss you too. But promise me you'll try your best to win this" he looked directly at me. "I... Can't promise that Gale" I sighed. We just stayed like that, until he lifted his head, just enough to kiss me. We kissed until Gale stopped breathing completely. I just sat there, sobbing. I didn't care who saw. I looked up at the sky, which was going dark now. I was NOT going to win this. I would be with Gale, Prim, and dad. I would make sure of that.