To Jupiter

Just One

Dear Jupiter,
People say that seeking adventure is a waste of time.
Not all people of course, the people I'm talking about is my older family. Parents, grandparents, older cousins, all those who think they know best.
You see, as the story of my family goes, you get one adventure in life.
For example my grandparents from my mom owned an insurance company, and while they made money my mom told me once they didn't actually like it.
Their adventure was family.
My dad, he's been gone a lot. He's missed many birthdays, and many more to come. In fact he will probably be dead before I can get married.
His adventure was love.
My moms adventure was education. She has four degrees in a variety of subjects and she can be pretty much anything she wants.
Mimas chose to be adored, even if it was fake. Rhea chose to be young at heart forever.
And Mercury chose to have the most he could with the little time he has.
But I'm not like them, I'm not drawn to one thing. I love so many things at the same time, not as in a competition, I just want them all. I'm greedy and needy and clingy.
What is my adventure?
One day I want to reflect back on my life, and I want to feel proud of it. I want it to be an epic tale that everyone knows. But I want it to be true that's loved deeply.
I can't help feeling bad all the time that I just want to be known, like my family isn't enough for me. But they are, my heart just wants to wander.
I wish they would see I will always come back to them, I will always need a home.
You were different, you were everything.
Lust, love, hate, need, greed, emotions, impulse, fun, worry. All of it, you were all of it.
And now? Now I don't even know if you have the same job, or the same friends. Hell I don't even know if you are single.
But I still want you.
I am impatient, everything I want I want to happen right now. And I get all upset if told to wait.
But I'd wait for you for a million years just to spend one moment with you.
One of my favorite quotes is from a movie. It's actually a poem.
"If I had but an hour of love,
If that be all that's given me.
An hour of love; upon this earth,
I would give my love to thee."
And I find that most true with you. No matter how many people I love, from now until the end of time, I will always love you most.
So is it the hard to understand why I long for more? Why I can't settle like the rest of my family?
Is it so bad to want what I want? To need what I need?
Since when does space and time confine me to one thing, one hurrah?
I just want more.
I want more than one adventure.
And that dearest Jupiter, is because my adventure was you.
Love,
Saturn.