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4, cookies n cream.

The minute I heard those words coming out of Ryan's mouth, I froze. I refused to believe that he was there, that he saw.

He had to be lying.

I stared at him. "What incident?"

"You know, the evening you were nearly, uh, raped."

That was it. After that moment, I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. For months on end, I refused to define that time by a proper term, by a proper definition. Rape.

It was not only the fact that he mentioned it, but the way he did it so swiftly. He said the words out loud without any worry in the world; but I struggled to come to terms with it for months. I couldn't even say the words out loud, so I was jealous that he did it so easily. It was ridiculous because I knew he wasn't the one that gone through it; but it was just a feeling I couldn't shake off.

It happened on the 5th of May. I was walking to the supermarket to buy some medicine for my mum, because she had a really bad migraine and was nearly in tears from the pain. She tried to stop me from going, considering it was nearly midnight but my stubborn self went otherwise. I thought I was doing a good deed.

Everything went well and dandy up until the walk back to my house, where I realised someone was watching me. I clutched onto the plastic bag with mercy, looking around nearly every 2 seconds.

And then, he grabbed me.

The guy was wearing a black mask, but through the holes cut on it- it was obvious that he had blue eyes. He stunk of cologne, a strong musky one and it was a smell that I would probably recognise if I smelt it again.

As the tears continued to spill, Ryan hugged me. His arms held me gently in the bear hug, but something didn't seem right.

Then it hit me; cologne. I knew that smell. I have smelt it before.

I pulled away immediately as his blue eyes scanned my face. It was too much of a coincidence.

"I should probably head home," I said quickly.

He stared at me sympathetically. "No, don't," He grabbed my arm, but I took another step back.

"Don't touch me." I snapped, as I rushed out of his house. He ran after me, shouting my name but I didn't even look back.

I had to get away.

He was too similar to the attacker.

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As I made my way to the local ice- cream shop, I already knew what I was going to order.

Cookies and cream flavoured ice cream.

I quickly wiped away my tears, making sure I had no mascara smudges and walked through the door. I looked around to see if anybody was there, only to be greeted by Jackson Young.

He looked at me and smirked, as I hardly kept it together. It felt like I was going to break down any minute but I still somehow managed to plaster a fake smile on my face, trying to convince myself that I was okay. The truth was, I really wasn't.

I payed for my beloved ice-cream and sat down at the empty table, trying to segregate myself away from everyone. I didn't want to be seen but I still wanted ice-cream; my stubborn self just couldn't resist the urge.

I sat there, in peace and quiet, just thinking- overthinking. I thought I was finally forgetting about that awful time but I was terribly wrong because it still haunted my mind so much, that I thought I was losing it. As I sat in a daze, convinced that I was completely and utterly alone, my thoughts were interrupted.

"Why are you so depressed?" Jackson Young asked, as he sat next to me at the table. The minute he sat down, I felt safe. It was a weird thing that I was feeling, yet I couldn't stop it from invading my brain.

"Life." I almost whispered, trying hard to hide my tears.

"Here," He held out a tissue and placed it in my hand, while scanning my face with those brown eyes of his. I must have been dreaming, because I swore I saw a sign of sympathy. Or perhaps, I was just going crazy.

The rest of the evening went okay. Jackson helped me to forget about the 5th of May, and for that I was thankful. After that I realised, Jackson wasn't so bad.

He was just annoying, sometimes.

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i want ice cream now lol

i haven't checked if there's any mistakes, I will tho so don't judge

question; what's your favourite ice-cream?

ly all, thanks for reading. pls vote & comment & yeh, have fun:)