It was not easy to tell William all that had happened. I know he's happy to know that his daddy is alive but also sad that he wont be seeing David, at least for now. There is nothing like being back home.
"Mom so what will happen to dad? Will he come and live with us again?"
"I don't know. Time will tell and I have not seem him as yet so you'll just have to wait."
"Okay. It's nice to be back home, and what about David? I mean you did love him, he loves you, but my dad is back."
"I know. That's why we just have to let time tell. Everything is just so different from what it was, things can't be exactly the way it was. You do understand that, right?"
"Yes I do. After so many things, I wish you were with David. I would like you to be with my dad but I know that, that just can't be so. I feel that you should be with whoever you want to be with."
"I'm so proud of your understanding. You have grown up so much within a matter of time."
Everything is just the way it wads when I lived here. The warm welcoming yellow walls. At the corner rested a vase with dried flowers. It showed how long no one has been here, yet the place and memories seemed to have been not too long ago. It was warm like the last time Willy was here and so filled with love. The whole place felt so weird. Maybe its because I haven't been here in a long time. This is the perfect place to pull myself together and think what I should do next. At least my son is at home with his mom. I can't tell when it was the last time I slept here. It most have been so long ago.
So many memories keep coming into my head. Like the times Willy and I made love, when we were a happy family. All the good times we had, seem so distant from where it was, where it used to be. Not only that comes to mind, but also the day Barbara came at my doorstep, that was the day my whole life came tumbling down to the deeps of hell. From there. From then I have been living in hell and there is nothing that will make it any better, only my son is what makes me see that there can also be good times.
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I've been so busy with changing my name and seeing some places where I can move. California will be part of the past. New York will be my home now. I've been getting phone calls from David but I avoided them all. Willy, God knows where he is, worse yet his sister. Changing my identity will make it easier to hide from all my unfortunate lovers. Who thought that so many men would fall for different personalities and all just falls to being the same girl. All of them putting everything aside for my love, for me. Never in my life I thought to break so many hearts. My heart would break for each of their disappointments and fall hard fro them too.
And it will serve as a way get to the bottom of all this crap. I need to know the truth before I leave. I need to know how everything was played out, how Willy is alive and see if David was telling me truth or if he was just playing with me like he is used to doing. Mean time life seems to be normal for William. He amazes me with him getting along great with school even though he's seem a lot lately.He insisted that he should go back to school and not waste time.
