Why Me?

chapter 3 - the big question ??

   I continued trying to stay awake while everyone else was dancing and having fun . I got up a total of two times to dance, but it was against my will. The songs were typical arabic pop songs but I still didn't enjoy myself the way I thought I would on my own wedding day. Everything went by very fast and next thing I knew my uncle called to inform us that he will be coming to pick me up in about and hour.

  I freaked out. Oh god is this really happening!  

I was used to living in different places with different family members always moving for all sorts of reasons. Yet I never felt these butterflies in my stomach and my body tense the way it did when I heard it was leaving soon to my husband's house.

I knew what was coming I knew my uncle was coming to take me along with 40 other cars behind him to take me away and the more I thought about it the more I wished the floor would open up and swallow me whole . I didn't want to leave my family and start a new life with my so called 'husband' and his family. I couldn't bare it . I really hated my life at this moment.  Swallowing the lump in my throat I tried my best to hold back tears .

Just when I thought I was going to burst out crying Layla came to my side and sat with a huge grin on her face .
"Hey beautiful, are you ready ?" She asked while moving her eyebrows in a flirty way . I sighed out of frustration.  "No Layla I really don't wanna leave."
"Hahah leave? No darling I said are u ready? Like prepared or do u want some
advice " she said this time with a bigger grin and an evil wink.

'Advice? What is she talking about"

"Ugh, Layla can you speak properly , like everyone else? Advice on what.?" I was getting annoyed and she got the hint . Putting her hands up in defense she laughed .
"Okay okay sara I'm just saying losing your virginity isn't an easy thing maybe I could give you some tips."

'Oh my god!! Did she just ? What did she just? No way'

"Are you fucking kidding me!" I whisper yelled at her "tell me you joking you can't possibly be that out of you mind! I'm not having sexual intercourse with that....that.. guy" I folded my arms and sat back 'she can't be serious' I thought.
She placed her hand on my shoulder and gave me a sympathetic look.
"I'm sorry sara I thought you knew"

I was so confused "knew what? What are you talking about?"
"Okay I'll explain but don't go crazy on me I'm not the one that made this stupid tradition and you aren't the first or last that has to follow it ."
"Ok just tell me" I urged her to continue.
"Um.... okay well when you get to your husband's house"
'Husband my ass, I don't want him'
She continued. ........"basically later on today . In the night. You and him have to have sex" I laughed like she just told me a hilarious joke. "No Layla no one can force me to do something I don't want tradition or not"  she sighed "listen sara it's not your choice let me explain a little bit more.

You know how it's so important we stay virgins until marriage? " I nodded knowing that's a true fact. That's why we aren't allowed to have a boyfriend. "That's because when we get married we have to prove that to our husband and his family also our family too . You have to prove to everyone that you are a virgin on you wedding day." My eyes widened what what what I couldn't belive my ears. "hh-how do you pp-prove that t-to everyoo-one" I stuttered 

She looked down as if remembering her first time, "you guys have sex on a white sheet and once your blood goes on it and it shows your virginity was taken he then shows his mom the sheet and you show your mom after that , word spreads and everyone finds out you were a virgin. "

'She is serious omg I don't want that,"

I was in shock......."ww-what if I dd-dont?" I asked shyly
"Its not your choice sara if you refuse then his family makes a big problem and ........"
She stopped herself from finishing her sentence and looked away .
"And what? What could they possibly do?" I turned her face so she was facing me again.  " they assume your not a virgin and they will start to say someone played with you before marriage so your refusing to have sex with their son, and you really don't want a rumor like that to spread sara so u have to prove it later today." My mouth fell open. This is insane . I can't  'do it' with someone I don't love or even like. I knew part of getting married had to do with sleeping with your husband but I thought I could stall a couple months until I'm a little comfortable with him . Now I find out I have to 'do it' THE FIRST DAY!! ugh.... my head was spinning and so was the living room.... or at least I thought it was.

Layla got up to leave but I pulled her back down next to me . My heartbeat increased faster and faster and I could hear myself breathing heavily. "Ss-so  y-your saying
hh-he's go-going to......." I swallowed ..... "rrrr-rape m-me?" I stuttered fearing my every word. Layla sighed and pulled me into a warm hug. "Oh sara , don't think of it like that, just th...." I cut her off before she finished her sentence and pulled out of her hug. " don't think of it like that ?! But that's exactly what it is he's going to force me into having sexually intercourse with him, AGAINST MY OWN WILL!! That's rape Layla that's rape"

  I felt tears  forming in my eyes and didn't care that my makeup was now getting ruined. She pulled me in for another hug this time holding on tighter she whispered in my ear "you are an amazing beautiful strong girl. Prove to everyone that and it'll be over before you know it. Face the fact that he's now your husband and everything will be fine." She sat upright and smiled "you want your parents to be happy don't you?" I nodded knowing that's really what I wanted. "Okay then that's what will happen if you do what you have to " I sighed and nodded again she was right and that's what is going to happen.

"Okay now that we are done with that let's go upstairs and fix your makeup until your uncle comes. We have twenty minutes. " oh wow I didn't notice we had been talking for forty minutes. The butterflies in my stomach just grew as I followed her upstairs.  Ladies kept cheering as I walked by and I just smiled .

We arrived upstairs and Layla started fixing my makeup . She finished quickly and we chatted until I heard someone call my name. "Sara , sara, where is the bride?" It was my mother's soothing voice. Layla stood up and ran to the door "we are here, what's up?" My mom stepped in the room and smiled at me . "Your uncle is five minutes away let's get you downstairs darling" I nodded and stood up .

      It was time to go...........

A/n****

Whats up guys tell me what you think plz! Umm  so I was thinking of doing a couple more chapters like 1 or 2 until i see if this book is doing good or if I should just take it down i honestly don't know guys but I really need you guys to encourage me but be honest too it means everything to me. Love yaaa bye

-Reema